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2009-04-05T10:42:00.000+08:00

Elaine's blog has moved to http://baby-addictions.livejournal.com !

2009-04-04T20:17:00.003+08:00

HEY PEOPLE :D

hees, i woke up uber early tday for...
NEWSPAPER COLLECTION .____.
lols, had fun though :D

we went to buy food to eat first before starting :x so kinda slack.
but after that bcoz of the stupid delay of the truck we had to stay thr so long,
that we completed our two blocks so long ):
but anw, i had fun
and had talks with friends as well, especially jesley.

thanks jesley, for being thr for me when i need someone (:
you are really great,
and to think that i had a bad first impression on you :/
haas, glad we are able to be friends, and
thanks alot for listening to my problems.
when you have problem, i will tell you yo :D
and you also, must tell me everything too !
not everything lur, but got problem can find me yea.
(: takecare, loves <3

and dear, thanks for being thr too !
though the way you "comfort" me is so fierce,
i know you dont mean it, you just "act" niahs.
hehs.
love you my dear boy. hope this will be a great 11th mth.
count down till one year tgt (:
<3

yeap, went to look for claudia judy yiling after meeting dear.
do project for chinese .___. so lame rights !
nvermind, so we brainstorm (sortof)
then in the end we decided to spilt the job.
nxt time zai do :x
hees. pei claudia buy her raw dinner,
then we all go home alrdy.

slacked, till now, thinking of how to use that stupid livejournal.
but i dno how still ):
someone teach me ?
i know how to post alrdy,
but i dno how to create the layout that i WANT.
help ):
btw, its still the same url except its livejournal instead of blogger.
coz i cant think of any other names yet.
when got inspiration, i will change yo.
i will still blog here i think (: sometimes.
depends. but someone help me, coz i hate my layout now ):

& i hope this friendship wunt end bcoz of these ..

2009-04-02T18:47:00.002+08:00

..(:..

Thursday , 020309

YTD was Xiaoxuan's and bryan's birthday :D
HAPPYBIRTHDAY ! sorry kinda late on my post, but hey i msged you both at 12 am KAY !
anw, HAHA, bryan got a G-string (PINK with fury bottom and hole) for one of his gifts :D cant help it,
but i cant stop laughing. LOL.

kay anw, quarrelled with dear ytd, sortof, again hor.
but we are ohkay alrdy :D tday, well, better sortof (:
love you dear, will nver ever leave you.
tmr our 11th mth tgt alrdy :DDD
happy nots (:

tday tiring uhs. don really rmb what happen but i hate the maths lecturer man !
she talk freaking high lur ! ear pain.
somemore she get excited easily, and then when that happens, she goes even more high pitch .
can hear ppl say "OUCH" in the middle of her speech sometimes :x
keep laughing.

did bio practical tday.
took a picture of my results, coz i thought of a really good msg that i wna share with everyone who reads my blog.
but.....
i lazy upload and type out my feelings eh.
so yea, no story :D

well, i got to go do my homework alrdy ! been piling ever since last wk, not done till now .___.
so yeap, byebye :D
dont miss me !
hees :3

lastly,i love you shaunkxw ,
even though we may quarrel alot of times, i know that we are still deeply in love,
just that we lose track of each other easily
and studies are interrupting.
but still, i really love you alot,
and i will nver leave you, till the day i get cancer and die (:

woainiaishiterusarangheyoakucintakauiloveyou

2009-03-30T18:35:00.008+08:00

i love you my boy ♥

shaun look so cute in this photo hor :D
my dear maa (:

monday , 300309

anw, tday i woke up at 4.49am ! OMGosh. so tired the whole day.
why so early coz i need to go to the toilet to pee. and it is so unreasonable. i pee-ed once bfore i go sleep, 1am wake up go pee again, the other one is 4.49am. .___. i went to bathe. then awake once and for all.

went to school with my brother, took 21. im the only one frm tpjc in the whole bus, and only one to cross the overhead bridge at that point of time, and one out of 2 person to enter the school at that time ! omg, you can imagine how ooluu the place is that time. i thought no school lor ! ._.

yeap, the school is pretty empty. sat down, then wait for dear, then go assembly ground (:
met corrina they all first. corrina collarpin drop into longkang ! HAHA. so cute :D

kays, then had lessons. chem titration again. fun uh, but hor, the color change part not as exciting as in secondary sch coz this one the color change hor, like not exact one. you add a few more drops after this palepink1, still will give you palepink2 .____. really.

break, ate chocolate cro...something.

maths tutorial go through transformation :D
chinese slack ! hees :3 me and claudia and judy and yiling discuss project finish we jiu play the finger game trivia taught me :x *you have to place your two hands flat on the table. when i point , for eg , your middle finger, you have to try lift up ur index and fourth finger without lifting other fingers up :D *
we play till we keep laughing coz the way they try to raise their finger very cute.

maths lecture was like HUH?!?!?!?!
then break ! :D MEEPOK :D

econs, i fell asleep for awhile, ): then manage to catch up though :D
gp, in lt1, POVERTY ..

meet dear, then talktalk with his friends, then after that start watching soccer.
got different schools' team come tpjc to play soccer.

watch tpjc VS one other sch till uber sian then go home. oh, by that time, tpjc scored a goal :D
hee :D

dear pei me to busstop, then he saw my brother in bus.
thats his excuse for not sending me home ):
but nvermind lur, so bright wunt die, and got brother mahs.
give dear hug then go home lerh.

(: i uber happy tday, i think (:
hope i wunt think so much.
i guess im just thinking anyhow thoughts ):
please i hope its not what im thinking ba..

& dear i love you :D

OH, pictures :D

look like zahr ! reminds me of her. aww i miss you zahr ! D:

the first so-hard game in djmax that make me wna play

EX e7 ! :D

all different schools lerh D:

2009-03-29T12:56:00.001+08:00

ERGH ! im so angry at my computer coz it is taking forever cans !
):

i haven do homework and now i cant use the computer properly. idiot laa.

anw, ytd had band bbq at hensly house (: fun uh. keep eating.
no pictures to show, and lazy to blog out everything.
hm oh one thing, shaun now has a new interest - pool. (isit how you spell it?)
ha, not bad for a beginner alrdy my boy :D

yeap gtg bye. :D

JESLEY : yo :D will link you soon alrights ! i now kinda rushing for time.
ALEX : lol, i haven even do gp test ):
YILING : yeap :D thanks for listening to me yea !

2009-03-25T18:49:00.002+08:00

Wednesday , 250309

first period, chinese. boring ! but we had slacked lesson tday coz need do project. we discuss awhile, then go toilet camwhore and then go back to library slack :x
heh.

then i went to reserve POTATO ! :D (bakedpotatoday, cost 5oc cheaper) went for the torturous pe, which is oh so torturing, then went for break with my POTATO :D

had some problems but kinda solved now so dont worry yo (:

chem was "huh ?" better read up later ):
then i received a msg from mschua, saying tmr go back prss. good or bad i dno,
but on friday im going back to sch ! good or bad ? i dno :/

yeap i know my hair is weird, but no choice, cut liao lur. but this one is longer. that time one is WOAH, sibei ugly.

kays, i go lerh bah (:
byebye

& im sorry for everything

2009-03-24T20:16:00.011+08:00

is this what love is ?

Tuesday, 240309
-i will smile coz i know you still love me.. right?

went to school tday. had 3 tests tday !
b'coz of econs, we had to stay back till 6plus leh ! ): sadded .
but i'm glad the tests are all over :D

kays, anw, tday had pe, then i realised that i failed one of my stations ! >:(
stupid. i passed everything with As and Bs (except sit&reach) and i get a FAIL for standingbroadjump ?!
idiot .
played violent basketball tday. training actually.

then, have bio test. was ohkay lur. but my writing is so disorganised ):
break. then had econs. tcher was rated as "hot" by the guys in our class. Lol.
& yes she really speak like a bullet train, and look alot like a kindergarden tcher to me :/

PW. the tcher damn effing irritating. keep nodding and shaking her head .____.
really! you see alrdy will abt giddy. not for you, but i will lor.

Bio, slacked actually. but i got pay attention kays !
(:

lastly, that stupid econs test lorh.
haha. nthin to say lur.

anw, waited for dear to chge, bought him sandwich eat, then he pei me wait for bus,
jiu go home lerh (:

too tired to start work, so i will just post some pictures that i took ytd
so sad, all me. so you can don see anyway. (:

got more, but lazy post.
hahas, bye :D

dear, i missing you badly now ):

2009-03-23T19:53:00.002+08:00

stupid computer dont allow me to upload my pictures onto the computer from my phone D:
boo !

anw, tmr i hope got more pictures yea, coz in sch im damn tired and restless tday, didnt talk much too :/
haha.

overview for tday :

chem - did practical. titration. the tcher was so... he thought we dno alot of things, so he kinda reteach titration again ! nvermind, i love titration ! coz the color change very exciting :D

break - ate potato ! :DDDDD i will nver ever be bored of that

maths - ohkay, we go through some qns lur

chinese - boring. ): but happy for michelle ;D

maths - test on amaths ! omg, so many things i forgot liao. 3 qns i unsure of. the rest not really completed too D:

break - !! :D ate vegetarian. lol. thanks judy for 2 of the fishballs :D !

econs - boring. but learnt alot. tcher speak like bullettrain

gp - FREEPERIOD ! :D

heh, then went home after that coz dear studying with friends (:
after that, went out with brother go eat his dinner at kfc.
walkwalk awhile then go home ler :D

hees, elaine, go start work yo !
im happy now, coz i lovee shaunkxw !

2009-03-22T18:46:00.001+08:00

at my grandma house now :D
heh.

haven really study but who cares, i got my new phone now :D
im, superduperuberwooper happy cans ! coz it is touch, pink and same as dear :D
well, one mth of countdown is finally over :D

hee :D

2009-03-20T15:47:00.002+08:00

i'll try to smile, i'll try to stay happy.
& i'll try to be reasonable and not so sensitive yea.
i hate myself to the core coz i've hurt you bad.
im sorry my boy.
love you yeas. hope you get well soon.
meetup soon too (:

2009-03-19T21:11:00.002+08:00

YO. yeap here is the second post of the day :D
happy ? lol, whateverrr.

yeaps, im feeling better alrdy. [:
haha. i've been somewhat alone at home the whole day actually. well, doing nothing but slack ard while i study my biology :D that is the only subject i can study coz that is the only one im interested in so far !

lol, whatthehell .

ohkay anw, ivan came back from movies, and start to do homework till he asked me to help him in the maths qns. being sucha lousy and lazy sister, i said no. and he made a fuss that really pissed me off coz its soo...... kidish.
those who know ivan and me, imagine ..

ivan: jie, help me do laaaaa
elaine:don wan la i no mood do. do yourself can ?
ivan:walao i dno how to do.. i know the concept but don understand why the answer likethat
elaine:ahya, i sec one that time can do why you now cannot do ? do urself la. always ask me.
ivan:walaoooo ! you like that one. i nver always ask you lor.
elaine:no. i no mood do.
ivan:ergh walao.
*slience*
ivan: i know how to do liao lah. nxt time you ask me help you i don want to help you
elaine:walao, you very unreasonable leh

yeap, thats why i called dear. not even one min i happy liao, coz dear was like
"then?"
"then?"
"thenthen?"
"aftr that leh?"
"then"
"then?"
blahblah. his tone made me laugh. heh :3 loves you dear.

but the conver we had eariler is so hard to come again.
D: at least it came tday when im kinda irritated by my brother (:

yay, 3 topics for biology covered by tday :D
tmr i shall do my GP, then the rest of my homeworks !
jiayous elaine, don ever slack yo .____. !

2009-03-19T12:03:00.004+08:00

smile elaine smile :D

went for band ytd.
had a okay time thr. tiring lur. so many running notes !
yes, they are really running. CHROMATICS somemore ! D':

ohkay, dinnered after that (:
we went to changiairport coz they wna eat popeye [how to spell uh ?]
anw, kinda cute lehs. prss band is longjohn. tpjc band is popeye :D

kays, we tabao the food, thenthen we go downstairs basement eat.
we sit in a circle and eat.
after eating we played true or dare.
all ppl kena true except me and jolene.
mine was actually very erxin and cruel to me lur.
but i manage to bargain till i need to smell dear's hair and make a yuck face.
i passed ! :D

then jolene's was to prank call someone :x
we wanted her to prank call personA.
after long hensitation,she called, but cant call through.
sad.
so we changed target.
still no answer.
then finally thr is one. but i dno who isit.
heh.

went home after that. dear sent me home (:
yeap, did maths for awhile then go to sleep alrdy !

i got to go study later. i hope i will D:
i dont have the motivation to study, as well as the mood to even start opening my lecture notes.
Lol. saddddd case for me eh.

things have been randomly going through my mind, but i guess,
i just have to tell myself to forget abt all those and just let things happen
by fate ?
haa. i have no choice eh.
but i guess its helping. i kinda feeling numb right now.
well, guys can live without girls.
but girls cant live without guys.
i really miss you dear.
when are we going to have unforgettable memories again ?
not so soon eh..
i guess i can only dream to make myself feel better.

2009-03-18T10:10:00.004+08:00

Fuck You ..?

HeyHey, im back. lol.

kays. after tonning i actually went into a deep sleep. due to quarrells and problems, i just sleep the whole day .
nthin accomplished.

nxt day woke up bathe then meet dear at 201 mac. we study, and eat early lunch, then went to sch to study coz too noisy. actually, sch worse, more distractions for him.
nvermind, studied till 2pm, had boring sectionals.
then we had combine. so cool. he spoke so fluent japanese that i kinda attracted to his voice. comeon he so old la. can be my dad, i think.

after band went to Ehub with them to eat chickenrice. had fun. yea.
dear sent me home quickly so he can faster go home use toilet.
so yea end of story.

i dont feel like studying at all. maybe i shall just fail everything :D
anw, ppl alrdy start to think im stupid.
[:
nvermind. im okay (:
i just realise ytd that one have to be happy no matter what.
one life, one chance niaaa.
so might as well live it well and happy.
no one can make u happy then u make urself happy lor (:
got quarrel then just tell yourself, nvermind lah, will okay one.
then can liao lor.
oh, and if you are as confused as me now,
just tell yourself "hate those feelings, forget those feelings, and just smile and dont think of those feelings"
yea ?( :

boys = lies
can you prove me that this equation is wrong ?
or is it just that im sensitive ?
lols. i choose to choose the second one.
im downright confused. i feel like pulling my hair out.
i feel numb.
i dno how to feel. happy ? sad ?
things are fine now, why am i feeling this way ?

_l_ you elaine. go to hell.
i hate you elaine.
thanks for creating so many problems.
thanks alot for making me so confused right now.

yes im feeling down.
if you want, you can call my number.
819.....

ergh, i fucking miss you dear.

2009-03-13T20:44:00.003+08:00

Cried till i dont want to cry anymore

now im currently at T3 :D it's midnight. yeap, ton out night !
i only got 6 mins bfore the timing for the internet thingy goes off. so eyapyeap. short and sweet :D

i went to meet dear int he morning at T3 mac actually to study :D
he bring the books, i bring myself to study his books (: heh.

ard 1plus, i left the airport and met claudia prettaye at pasir ris mrt (:
then came bryan. then meet the rest (alex, deon, jesley, cyrus)

went to look for movies. but was indecisive. so we went to eat for some inspiration. end up, watched Slumdog.

slacked and camwhored.

we zilian !

*whoo !

claudia !

bryan : am i fierce ?
alex : hee *twist
deon : erms ?

*kisskiss

*kisskiss

:DD

:D

:D

:D

:D

gay ._. again. well so2 has many issues of gays ehs.

:o

twist

candid actually

bryan : am my eyes big enough ?
the rest : definitly

actcute-ing guys

:D

heh :3

then went to watch the movie.
okay lah(:
not that boring.

went to meet emilene and xiaotong. then buy cake for jesley and slacked too.

eww ? cyrus and deon

went to T3 :D now lur.

XIAOXUAN ! i have a new friend called xiaotong :D being 18, she is shorter than you leh ! happy nots :x sorry xiaotong :x

emilene !

deon (:

jesley :D

aww, familyphoto !

emilene and deon

the couple :D!

claudia and jesley

candid

meanwhile, to my dearest boyfriend.
i dno whether will you read this, but yes, im sorry that i didnt listen to you to go home.
i hope you understand..
goodnight and sleep well yea. hope we can meetup soon coz i really miss you alot..
many things happened these 10mths, and many things have been going through my mind the whole time ever since we end the phone call just now till now..
i really hope our relationship will be as sweet as bfore, or even better, sweeter.
i love you dear, and i know you do to, just that you dont really express so much.

well, study hard alrights.
(: woaini.

hey dear, i love you alrights. dont ever leave me. im sorry we quarrelled tday.
maybe im just too sensitive. well, see you tomorrow yeas. woaini.

and i've learnt from 15th march, that even if i dont have boyfriend, i still have my friends (: thank you emilene claudia jesley xiaotong judy yiling for being thr (:
and the guys not that close, but deon cyrus vicky and bryan still make me laugh at times :D
thanks girls and guys.
i know i can lean on you girls for support when i have problems.
love you girls <3

2009-03-10T18:26:00.002+08:00

Baby, I Miss You, I Need You, I Want You, I Love You.

Schooled tday :D mood wasnt very good in the morning. sorry dear. i was just upset you didnt reply me in the morning, didnt msg me in the morning, and say i nver answer your phone call when i didnt know you called at all..

PE. ran 2.4km. tcher said i ran extra round. but i counted 6. so nvermind, i got 14mins. i wna re-run coz the timing is so not the true one ):

went to drink milo, then lemon tea (THIRSTY !) then go for biology lecturer. ohyea~ that's when everything started. - i got cramp.
pain like shit i tell you. worse, got fire drill. so fcuking hot down thr. heng got umbrella :D

went to eat noodles to so feel better, drink hot milo, so to feel better. went to lesson -Econs.

rested during econs, and when chem start and i stand up, this is the conver :
Elaine : got stain not ? *show claudia butt
Claudia : Got leh ! i nver bluff *so sarcastic-ly but actually true
Elaine : *turned* OMG

*go to toilet.

yeap. so throughout like 2-3 hours im uncomfortable lur. went home straight after school. (:
dear having pe, so cant pei me D:

& my friend Jesley said to me,
Cherish your relationship now. Make him feel love just by making things for them.
Guys are dumb. They wont know the meaning we want them to know.
They will think otherwise.

yeap, my shaun is uber dumb. but oh well, who ask me love you my dear boy (:
i love you yea.

2009-03-09T21:09:00.004+08:00

yeap, these are the pictures taken on saturday (:

not all lur, coz many not nice, or else the same, so a few nia :D

claudiaaaa ! must go out again soon ohkay ! :D

i need to buy dress :D

2009-03-08T12:58:00.002+08:00

School's ohkay (:
homework done alrdy ! guai hor (: not really done lur, i dno how to do, wait till tcher teach me :D

Ytd, i went out with CLAUDIAAAA ! my bimbo friend :D
well, others couldnt make it, so only us lor (:
meet at 12pm at dte. eat lunch liao, jiu go Bk study :D
guai rightttts :D

study awhile nia jiu camwhored :x dont have the pictures now coz dear claudia haven mailed me the pictures ! my phone spoil ma, that tupid motorola so suck. not even 0 megapixel.

after that, we went to whitesands, cut my hair. eeyeer, ugly siah...
reason why i cut is cause messy and cover eye. now even worse. ): claudia say nice, but to me uber ugly lorhs ):

rain uber heavy after that, made our way to eastpoint. :D the floor flooded above ankle seh .___. heavy rights.

looked for fbts, don have, walkwalk awhile more, then go longjohn eat :D
then claudialam told me abt her story of accidents.
got one very cute lor !
she say she got bugtooth, then she play at playgrd then........
kay i don say, later she scold me :x but the ending damn cute lur.
:D

kays, rain gets less heavy lerh, so we at mrt station stone whr to go. in the end decided to got tamp. :D we shopped thr, nver buy anything, only a logo to paste on our new bag. :D
then she go find her mummy, while i go home lor :D

went home eat again ! alot of potato lorh !
mashpotato, baked potato, something else my bro cook with potato also, then clamchowder also got potato. :D
but abit sian lor, eat till dowan eat liao.

yeap, thats all.
nver go meet dear tday coz he going meet his friends.
miss you alot dear..
it is really alot.
i feel so weird these few days as i feel like as if you arent really with me at all.

i miss your hugs, i miss your voice.
i miss everything of you, but i guess i have to wait for the day to come
whr you really got the time for me ba .. (':
i cant complain anyway..

2009-03-05T17:47:00.002+08:00

Someone said something to me when he had a relationship problem, when i was in secondary 3. And he said :

"i am climbing up the rope that she held in her hands on top,

but she aint pulling me up though i am trying hard to climb up"

i finally understood what it means, and how it actually feels, though my situation aint as serious as his that time.
i feel that im climbing damn hard, but you thought that i have the strength to hold on, and only will pull me up on the day you have the time and energy to do so..
but actually i dont. i am weaker than you think i am.

i was super confuse these few days, struggling hard to put things aside from my mind that will cause problems. i am really trying my best to not create troubles, and really im stressed out by Nothing.
i feel so stressed out, but what else can i do than to solve it myself?

2009-03-04T21:27:00.012+08:00

to fall in love is easy
to stay in love is not easy at all.

i miss you alot my dear, and i decided to put up nice pictures of us tgt in the past 10 mths ..

one of the first (:

anw, i really hope that things will go well in our r/s.
i love you alot my dear,
but i find that i am nthin near to perfect at all.
so, im trying my best to be the most perfect girl for you.
but i need some time kay ?
all i want you to do now is to be happy and love me back.

in this r/s, i've learnt that love isn't a fairytale.
thr is nthin called "prince charming"
thr is nthin called "happily ever after"
even the best guy, will quarrel with you.
even the best guy, will make you cry.
even the best guy, will make you insercure at times.

so even the best guy cant be perfect.
but still, i love you shaunkwan, that's all i know.
no matter what happens, i will nver cause problems for you again.

i'll be the perfect girl, and no one else.

2009-03-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

YAY ! TENNNNNNMONTH :D loveee you dear ♥
thanks for making my life filled with colors,
being thr to make me happy and laugh,
arguing with me on nonsensical stuff and then start laughing at it,
scolding one another infrnt of each other in other ppl's terms.
and though we did quarrel many times in this 10 mths,
i know we get closer each time.
i hope we will last, and hope we wunt quarrel again
& i definitly will cherish you even more.
i love you, and nver will i let you go.
thank you, sorry, i love you ♥

btw readers, i can't be updating my blog too often alrdy (:
just cant find the time lor. i will try lur (:
and will post many pictures yo.
actually i have something to rant out tday on my blog.
but, shall not spoil this post of mine :D
coz it's me and my baby boy tenth monthsary,
& im in a superduperuber good mood !
dear and me celebrating on sunday though (:
not tday coz we ended late. so no pictures !

oh talking abt that, i gna get a new phone on march 22nd i think :D
yay, same phone as baby !

2009-02-28T20:36:00.003+08:00

here is zhiyi ! :D
& i love her

kay, had band camp on friday. till saturday 5.40pm. tired lah. but i enjoyed myself :D get to know michelle and felica better :D but too bad lah D: they joining horn section. unfair lor.. from flute one then bcause horn not enough they must go play horn instead. 2mths how to go syf ?!
hm. but jiayou kay girls ! :D i support you (:

anw, yeap, had dirty games planned by the excos. examples are, play scissors paper and stone while hopping from chair to chair (chair containing flour and water). yes, dirty lur !
then play .. eat finish-the-watermelon first game. not one person one. is 8 person half the watermelon. got ppl cheat. but yea, yucks.

but overall was okay. had tutors coming and stuff. and i am gna play first flute for overture no2 :D hard la, but i have the interest to play for first flute actually. second easier though, so i rather play second. play till uber tired, and hand uber pain can? hahas.

after that, went to eat with dear at 201 mac :D
then buy happymeal for brother, jiu go home ler.

sigh, i want that pink pokeball. but no more ler..

dear i miss you alot.
srsly i do.
but is thr something that you dint tell me ?

2009-02-26T22:41:00.017+08:00

ohkay, post for PICTURES !
random order.. so just see and laugh yea ?
kay the boys .

candid eh.

anw the girls ! :D

\m/ rockers yo .

kay now my orientation group ! OG1 :D

then my camp ! HERONNNNN~!

heehee. nice right the photo ? :D

kay byebye !

2009-02-25T19:38:00.000+08:00

i will post some other day to post abt my day tday ! :D
with pictures of course.
hee. stay tune ! and yeap. im fine now (:

thanks girls for being thr for me when im down (:

2009-02-24T21:24:00.004+08:00

speechless.
i don't know what to say other than "i've ruined everything" . i shouldn't have called you, shouldn't have doubt everything, shouldn't be so sensitive.
i'm sorry. but it's too late i guess.
i tried. but i just suck. and i failed again.
i tried.
i did tried to avoid all these to happen.
but i failed.

things turn out this way and i have no other way, but to sit and wait.
wait for that one day...
that determines everything.
i'm sorry.

boy, i miss you alot

2009-02-21T12:37:00.002+08:00

Currently im in dear's house. just finished lunch his mummy cooked and yea, he really eat alot lur. promised him cannot say the amount. but srsly, alot lur. anw, since im waiting for him to bathe and get ready, i shall blog abt the pass one week ! i nver blog for one week leh. you readers got miss me ? i guess not too .___.

anw, day one, woke up early in the morning, get ready, then go to school with sucha heavy and big bag. yeap. then we have games and stuff lur. the amazing race was okay. our class bonded during the race. ohyah, my group is HERON ! ohh~sexy~oh~yeah ! haha ! they bias against us lor ! >:( im so angry. the whole heron angry actually. but nvermind, we enjoyed ourselves right ?! haha. day two more fun. coz we are uber bonded tgt. then at night we have fright night. i super scared lur, till don dare play. heng my grp the ppl not so mean to scare me further. ohya ! we got mass dance too ! super fun :D at first dno how to dance coz my hand and leg coordination Suck. but end up i got the hang of it, and fun laaaa ! :D hahas. overall, the camo super fun. many spoilers in the camp, but yea, fun :D sec3 camp still the best, this is rated 2nd :D haha.

and i love s02 ! (except some weirdos)

yea, thats the summary ; the camp is so fun !
i got some pictures, with jiaqi, fiona and dno who else. D: so i dont have pictures to post for this camp. hahas.

so yea, shaun haven even go to the abthroom yet !! still talking to his mummy and sister. nvermind, late jiu late. coz his fault ! haha jk.
anw, ivanchua ! your friend russellkwan is so much hardwoking lur . he studying infrnt of me now leh.

2009-02-14T11:54:00.004+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day ! ♥

im currently still at home (: waiting for dear to get ready at home. he went to play soccer in the morning so... yea, got delay lor. hahas. woken up by my alarm at 9.45am - womanizer - then cannot go back to sleep alrdy. so went to bathe and get ready, till my parents woke up, then i use computer. haha, yeap, im the first to wake up tday ! :D

anw, i wonder how im gna celebrate V'day. i nver celebrate bfore lor (: so this one is the first one. i hope it will be the first and not the last one D:
i hope tday is gna be fun !

yeap, i bought some things to make for dear. but i dno whether he will like not leh .. D: being such a glutton, i guess he will finish up the chocolates inside :x heh.

come to think of it, i kinda miss xiaoxuan, zahr, and many more from prss D: i wna meet them up uh .. haha. and i miss my flute section in band ! D: im going to find one day (when im free) to visit them :D hees. i miss baoshan mummy ! ♥

kay, i shall go prepare to meet dear ler. byebye ! i will come back with pictures i hope :D

--after coming home--

kay ! i shall blog abt my first ever celebrated V'day :D

meet dear under his block, then pass him my present :D then he go up, open and stuff, then make me wait downstairs ! >:[ you idiot. anw, he pass me my Vday card ! aww, i love it. its so cute. i shall take a photo for you guys to see nxt time yea ! remind me though. haha :D

headed to the other busstop to take 17 to downtown :D go check got what movie, in the end watch BrideWars. 5.30 pm, which is 3 hours from then. .____. so meantime, we go find thing to eat ! :D

kay, we landed on a planet called ExpensiveFood. but since for experience and to celebrate our first Vday tgt, we shall spoil ourselves with....... korean food in a korean restuarant. we forgot the name of the restuarant lur. but i got pictures :D

we kinda suagu lur. got tongs, but dont look like tongs lor. like... something to grab the tray to move it ard. then i call the person ask. anw, the oil like to jump about, so me and dear kinda got hurt in the process of bbq-ing chicken and meat or whatever. they look disgusting, but nice to eat. oh, the first one dear kiap for me dropped onto the seat. thr goes my chicken or whatever.

Chef Kwan ! :D

bfore,

after !

okay, paid the bill "$28.somethingsomething". not bad lur. kinda full, and nice also.

ohkay what else ah lemme think. . . . .
OH ! we walked ard then ended up trying out yogurts and then sitting down eating icecream !
see this picture:

he is licking from the small sample cup of the icecream that made us buy. so cute hor :/
kay lah, not cute. unglam (:

kay this is the bigger version that i ate. im not selfish ! he wna eat the small one, dowan to share.

but i got share yo ! im good :D

slacked , and camwhored :D

censored my face coz it is freaky ugly. my hair was like..

i like this photo ^
coz i look nicer than the other pictures. but, overall not nice coz shaun's face kinda weird

timesup, then went to the cinema. hall haven ready, so went to watch ppl play in arcade. you know the new game whr you have to press on the square buttons that follow the beat of the song? yea we watched them play like pro. like duh, can see they practise for 46463213484632 times !

haha. kay then we slack awhile more, then watch movie. watch ler, then walk to whitesands, eat ! :D hahas. then talktalk, then go home :D

& thanks dear for the Valentine's day. it aint perfect, but the best V'day ever :D
i love you dear, hopefully i'll be able to celebrate Vday with you every year (:
hope you like the present i gave you. and yes, i love the card !

2009-02-12T20:15:00.003+08:00

ohkay, im outta pictures so i shall stick to the old ones.

anw, im kinda pissed with blogger ! the pictures that i posted all gone. i mean, maybe for the timebeing only or maybe my computer just sucks. so im now using photobucket to upload my pictures :D

anw, tday is fine lur. kinda boring. during maths lecture i aint really listening uh coz im playign with calculator, the room damn cold (i wear shaun's jacket over my cardi), and dont understand tcher. so later i going to read. guai hor ! :D

kay lur. i went to check tpjc.net
then im in the group HERON !
aw suck lur ! purple nice lur. BUT, last group leh !
lousiest uhs. sucksuck ehhh D:

anw, tday went to giant with jiaqi and dear tday !
then went to look for ftbs. but no curves de D:
so we buy one straight each. so ugly lur.
anyone know where to get curves NDF FBTs, tell me hor :D
appreciated :D

2009-02-11T14:55:00.003+08:00

Im feeling so vexed now .
i dno what im feeling right now. i feel so fucked up with myself. what do i really want ? i don't know at all. im so confuse and so ... vex la. i tried to shout scream hate myself. all cant work. idiot.

kay, anw, went to school tday. only one lesson tday though - biology.
slacked the whole day and tapwater running like nobody's business.

went home due to stomach cramps. yeap, skipped band coz of menses.

i want a hug badly.
can you give it to me?

- i'm not your princess, cause this aint a fairytale

2009-02-10T19:01:00.007+08:00

Take A Photo Day ! :D
i love you girls yo !

Yeap, this is our "group" photo we took tday. the guys are "busy" and we dont have a photographer to take all of us. but i promise, i'll show you THERESTOFUS ! :D FROM PRSS !!
of course there are others from Prss, but they didnt join us in all the breaks. so i will gather them tgt yo. hopefully tmr (:

as promised, i'll post abt ytd first. well, ytd was Friendship Day. so thr wear balloons on sale ! so cute. tiny and cute. i want it so badly D: it's okay, i'll buy it soon, on one of these days !
kay, then we went to Prss aftr that :D visit Mrs chua. (: yeap, we miss them loads !
ate the laksa. okay lah. not hot so to me not nice. but still, i miss the food in Prss ! :D
bought the seaweed chicken, eat halfway shaun go take and eat ! >:(
Meanie. but HAH ! he paid me back another half .____.

kay, back to tday !
we had lessons (boring lessons) tday. actually, the only boring one is CME, and Chinese. Chem i was uber angry at the lecturer. she dont even wna explain what the maths equations means ! then before we can even understand, she jump to another. please lor, it's super fast lor. then she love to demoralise us la ! she will say "if you find that you couldnt do such a qns, you arent in the right place." Like, WTF.

anw, went to Cityhall, or rather, Funan, to pei shaunny collect his pay (: im getting mine one friday ! :D through bank.
yeap, ate, then went to Times. bought my storybook ! :D
HAH ! believe it or not, im starting to read storybook okay !
i will read it. by this year. eh. kay la, this june.
im a slow reader yo. but yea, this book has caught my attention i dno why.
i first know it when i read a girl's blog. (HansaHan's blog)
then aftr that i saw it in Times, and popular some time back.
so decided to buy it. like interested dno why. infact,
so far not many books caught my attention before .____.

on the way home tday i read leh ! :D 8pages for 10-15 mins on bus. not bad alrdy yea.
ohoh, the title is "Marly and Me"
i bought the one bfore the movie de.
the "original" i guess ?

okay, here are the pictures with jiaqi ! :D

yeap, our shoe has pink shoelaces. planning to change shoelaces instead of having colored shoes :D
good idea right ? all thanks to jiaqi :D
btw, jiaqi, takecare yo. rest well (:

yeap, changed song. brother sent me the song last week. uber nice. then no time change. finally changed :D heh.
kay i miss dear uber lots D:
tday when going back to tamp with dear, we had this conver (:
dear: hey, .....
me: so now i bcome "hey" alrdy la. im the same as other girls like lor? at least i call you dear or shaun. you call me "hey"
dear: *bekchek, laughing* kay lah, baby
i dno why, but i feel happy when he calls me baby than dear. however, for him to call me baby and me to call him baby kinda weird. haha !

& baby i miss you, can you read this and say you miss me too ..?

i really miss you alot dear ..

2009-02-09T17:41:00.003+08:00

Oh, is being judged by ppl means you are the one in the wrong?

i dno actually. but what i feel is that, it is not always true that the one being judged for something is really what he/she actually is. people have ears, mouth, eyes to 'judge'. however, often, ppl dont use all of them. they only use their ears to hear the "judgement"[or rather, rumour] by others' mouth, and then they use their mouth to spread. their eyes dont really play a part, till they see some coincidental "tio judged" actions made by the person who they are badmouthing. hence, they believe in the rumour even more. some of this ppl who start judging others from other's perceptions or opinions may not even know the victim at all.
True ?

some incidents are different. people dont know this person very well, and when they see this person act funny, they will think that this person is whatsoever acting cute/ or anything else, when the person is just being his/herself. or else, some ppl are just plain stupid, that they hear stories from their friends that aint true abt the person at all, and just believe, Blindly.
True ?

however, there are also some cases that are true. some people are true backstabbers, fakers, or whatever else you can think of your enemy. and of course, many hated these people, and rumours spread ard.

but hey, you know what ? it isnt really the person's fault to be judged by others.
1st, everyone is imperfect. so no matter how bad the person is, you shouldnt judge him/her, coz no one is perfect ! you are imperfect, and yet you are cursing and gossiping abt the other who isnt perfect also. but hey, you are the one being the more imperfect one, coz you are talking bad abt the others. so, think abt it (:
2nd, everyone makes mistakes. this may be the first time the person makes the mistake, and a huge one. because of her/his huge mistake, she/he is judged. his/her life is ruined eh ?
3rd, ppl may not even know the person well enough to know his/her real personalitly. ppl often hear from others, not finding our themselves.
4th, ppl are not fit to be the judge of others' life.

if you fall under the "victim" category, dont feel bad, coz if you know you didnt do anything wrong, you dont have to be afraid. furthermore, you have friends ard you, and also, your circle of friends dont just stop here, you will make new ones out thr in the world as you grow up :D

if you fall under the "judging" / "gossiper" category, Lol, just put yourself in other's shoes and think what will happen if you are the one who is being judged. will you be happy or sad ? futhermore, ask yourself this "is what i hear from others true?" , "is what i see the other time, the past of the person's character ? " .

that's all for tday :D
well, it's a random post i swear. i was thinking abt it when im bathing just now.
so decided to post abt it. (: i know my english suck.
it isnt a compo also. just a.... conversation ?
i'll tell you what happen tday, tomorrow bah :D stay tune !

2009-02-08T17:51:00.002+08:00

Do You Know That Love is The New Hate ?

true not ? .____.

now at my grandma house :D
very irritated with my cousins (the tiny ones) that keep snatching for the computer. and when their turn over, they will sulk .

anw, i bought shoes tday (: i hope jiaqi's idea work. haha. i still dno whether black shoe is better leh how.. ? D:
i very confuse lur.

btw, ytd went out with jiaqi and corrina to Giant ! we wna buy our fbts, but no black color so too bad for us. so we went back to tampines to shop :D hahas. i was late ytd actually. then made corrina wait for us for 1 hour plus, and made jiaqi to wait for ard 20 - 25 mins for me D: im so guilty lur ! dno how garret tahan the guilt every single time he late.

yeap, bought many things like books and stuff. told you we are excited ! :D we are excited to study. but hor, the bio book we buy hor, very lousy. teach little bit nia. D:

btw, bought my shoe tday, then painted the brand white. waiting for it to dry :D then i shall write my own brand !
any suggestion on the brand ? :D

kay, tmr is the DAY ! we are gna wear our JC uniform ! :DDDD
me jiaqi corrina quimei chuankai haven wear yet, so i guess we are all excited yo !
especially jiaqi right ! haha :D
im uber excited ! since im so excited, i think i will be able to wake up even earlier !
come'on, i've been waking up at 6.30am in the morning, and still i feel like sleeping !
im tired yea. and yes, tmr is also the day we are all gna go back to secondary sch to see the tchers :D hahaas
i dno lur, but hope everyone will be able to go back tmr tgt !

2009-02-06T19:02:00.003+08:00

yes, this photo is uber long time ago one (:

anw, had school tday. (duh) sleep early ytd night ! :D but still uber sleepy tday D: tday is boring lur. but tday we know our posting alrdy D: i didnt go to the same class as shaun. . that's the first sad thing.. the other thing is that im different class with jiaqi.. sad case 2. then.. im not the same class as the rest (except bryan) ! D: im uber sad now.

anw, tday only have PE [boring lur ! talk nia. waste time ] then we slack for 2 and half hour, then got chem. chem was like, the tcher waste time repeating what she just said a few days ago lur. then left another 30mins to teach. then we are just copying definitions, and kena demoralise.

then later, slacked again, till band starts. kinda nervous la, dno them. then somemore first time, my playing srsly sucks uh. im like a sec one playing with sec 4s. Omg.
then aftr that went home with dear.

dear sent me home tday. but bfore that, we talked at the voiddeck . don't worry my dear shaunkwanxuewen, you will always be my dear no matter what (: i know you can get all As, can cope with the assignments der (: i know you can. & you're arent stupid okay (: i believe in you, so now all you have to do is to believe in yourself (:
btw, smile more yea, i wana see you happy. you know what ? i kept wanting to cry just now. coz im so upset that you are so troubled.
i love you dear, forever and till eternity la ♥

oh, and here are the pictures i took the past few days :D yea a little la. the other group photos of me and my OG are not with me, so unable to post them.
but hey girls/guys, im gna miss you people. must jio me out ohkay ! :D [if you girls/guys ever read this lur]

my dear eating sakae food.
yeap, sakae is our thing (:

my bakepotato that i oh-so-love ! :D

2009-02-03T21:11:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NINE MONTHSARY :D

ohkay, i just cut my fringe short coz it is fucking irritating !
finally gotten rid of it. but now, im not used to short fringe .__.

kay, tday went to school. i dragged myself outta bed, then took bus at 7plus am. still, i manged to enter the school just on time :D

sing the school song and had many games tday. kept laughing. gossip session with the OGL too :x hahas. anw, i found friends thr (: and yeap, im confortable thr. well, i didnt really make the wrong choice (i think) coz it has the spirit thr. but if slack jiu die lah.

me jiaqi and corrina were like so enthu into studying .___. oh, not to mention, my dear shaunkwan. hahas. we bought most of the stationaries alrdy ! hahas. and the uniform + Tshirts. hahas :D zai right ?

well, we went to tampines mall. on the way thr, saw yongxiang and minsan ! funny thing is, yongxiang's head pop out, with his poped-out eyes looking at our direction, that's how i know they are thr. lols. i still cant forget the scenario. imagine, a poped-out eyes on a face poped-out of somewhr, looking at you outta so many ppl, and that person is yongxiang. you will laugh also.

kay, then saw james when we went to extent out ezlink card. (as in, extent the expiry date not make longer.) lame i know . just entertaining myself.
anywayyyy, yea, made our way to popular, bought the stationaries. bfore that, i made jiaqi's books drop ! sorry jiaqi, ): make u go find new ones again..

then suddenly (lightning strike, thunder booms) ! shaun appeared :D

anw, went to pasir ris to eat sakae later in the noon, with shaun (:
no pictures. (got one, but lazy post now coz in my phone) but we ate alot lesser than bfore. coz we learnt our lesson, which is, NVER TO EAT MORE THAN WHAT YOU CAN EAT .
we aint as bloated as the other time now :D
we ate like 19 plates, including 2 red plate, eat altogether 3 chiwanmushi, 2 misosoup. all in like... $35.05. not bad lur. hahas. we got eat over can liao.

then went to popular, saw the document tray that im interested to buy. think i will buy ONCE my room is done packing :D then i will have a neat and tidy room (finally) ! :D im so excited. i really wna study !
but still, what im choosing is siao uh.
H2 - chem, bio, maths
H1- econs

JIAYOU ELAINE ! i know you can survive with the biology as H2 :D [D: scared uh, we were warned not to take bio H2] well, too bad :D
im trying to go for medicine :D something that isnt really my aim last time, but now it is :D
still afraid that i will kill a patient coz i give wrong medicine.

well readers, give me all your support alrights? i know thr are some readers but you all don wna tag only (like for example, xiaoxuan !). so you all few readers, gimme your support yea :D
i promise i will do my best in JC, so that i can meet xiaoxuan again in University. eh, i think is NUS. (or isit NTU ?) xiaoxuan, still can call me out yo ! :D my school near your house. eh :3

btw, yeap, im fine now, better now.
(:

2009-02-02T20:23:00.004+08:00

i dont wna smile anymore. .

tday, went to sch. yes, tampinesjuniorcollage. had talks and boring stuff, then made new friends (: sadly they wna appeal for mjc ): so too bad. anw, aftr much thinking and cracking of my brain, i finally know what combination i want, thanks to jiaqi shaun coz they also wna take this combi, and we encourage each other to take the combi. why ? coz, we are taking H2 chem bio maths ! uh oh, it's like, tmd hard uh. but we are interested (: hahas, so yea, no sweat.
coz, elaine is gna work hard.

aftr that, bought my uniform and stuff, then went to tampines mall with dear to buy things , or rather stationary. hahas. then go home.

not in the mood now, and im uber tired. just wna blog abt my feelings than my daily life.
so here are my rantings, donneed to read if you want (: coz i dowan any dirty comments on my post.

9 months tgt, but still.. so many things are happening..
we are fine last week, but why tday, everything fucking change?
i didnt mean to get angry at you.
is getting angry at you a wrong thing..?
that's why, i dont wna tell you anything,
coz im afraid, that this emo-shit atmosphere comes back again.
well, it did.
lol, im upset.. i really dno what to do now.
i tried to smile, but you didnt.
i tried my best to laugh and be happy, but you didnt..
i tried my best to understand you, to be contented with what i have,
but in the end... it all end up to the same scenario - coldness
i dont wna cry to myself anymore.. it's pointless.
but, thats the only thing i can do.
well, fuck you elaine,
go take gun shoot urself.
die better. so i will nver hurt anyone,
i will nver be a burden to anyone,
i will nver be a demanding shit to anyone,
and most imptly, i will nver ever get hurt again.

i don wna go school tmr,
i don wna go..
i wanna sleep at home,
till one day i feel better,
i don wna care anymore,
i wna cry, keep crying till my eyes pop out,
i wna stop all these,
but can i..?

i just wish, one day,
you will use ur thumb to wipe my tears away from my cheek again,
to take my hand and pose every single actcute pose to make me laugh,
to hug me from the back and kiss my head,
to pat my head hard and call me dumb,
to hug me tight and say u love me, again..

i miss you so fucking much..
that.. i dno what to say..
fuck you Whoever you are,
satan, devil, lucifer or whatever,
for making me and shaun's r/s like SHIT !
fuck you !
fuckyou..
coz im real hurt now, and guess you are happy now..

hope i'll feel better,
soon.

tmr is our 9th month tgt.. will everything still be the same.. ?

2009-01-31T23:15:00.005+08:00

Here I Am, Trying To Feel Happy (:

Yeap, went to work tday , and ytd :D
ytd i uberduper happy :D you know why ? coz dear pei me to work, then aftr work, he wait for me and pei me go home leh ! :D im so happy uhs ^^ srsly, uber happy. thank you dear. i love you ! and he even grumbled, and snatch my fererol >:(

then tday i went to work alone and go home alone coz dear lazy D: nvermind, i independent ! >:)
then tday when having my dinner break, i went to the makeup section, then they help me draw eyeliner :D hhaas. like so suagu hor. but i dont like it, so removed it awhile later :x hahas

tmr last day ! woohoo ! im uber happy uhs ! so boring job also have. funny thing is hor, ytd i give 13 samples [ wna koup home 7, but the manager wna check bag so i dump everything back into the box .____. ] then tday give 41 ! lols. ytd i admit i was uber slack. i kept my mouth shut. tday more effective and hardworking :D of course la, elaine ma !

btw, FYI, i got into tpjc (: alotalot of ppl going thr, so i uber happy ! hee :3 got dear [most impt] then got corrina jiaqi chuankai quimei.... then forget liao. but uber happy :D

well, i've thought of what to make for valentine's day alrdy, have you ? (:

do you mean that

if we fall in love with each other even more ,

simple things like

saying "iloveyou" everyday is a chore

& not necessary alrdy ?

qns like how long will we last ,

will everything end soon ,

will we be the same,

will everything be as sweet and perfect as before,

came to me.

i hate it

i hate to doubt

i hate to think

i hate the fact that love you too much..

2009-01-29T18:23:00.004+08:00

I still miss you dear ♥

first, sorry i dont have any other photo to post tday [except for that]
second, yes i didnt go to vivo tday
third, i didnt watch TheWeddingGame for the second time

well, meet dear at his house downstairs at 11am. then headed to tampines mall. dear keep complaining abt his shirt very irritating due to the thread, so we went to giodarno to find cheap shirt for him to wear inside. end up, he buy and change into the crew/round neck Tee. so plain.
anw, i bought my longsleeve too, since the one i bought the other time is shorter and lower.

went to eat.... PIZZAHUT :D boy we are spending money like rich kids eh. haha. eat liao, then went to m)phosis to get the bag that i wanted !! :D OMG, my dream came true at last ! thenthen, i saw new things at m)phosis that i wanted to buy now :x heh ! cant wait to lay my hands on it :D it's uber cute and nice and chio luhhh :D then dear say don wna go vivo coz he too lazy .___.
you PIG !
1. you sleep till latelate
2. you eat soooo much
3. you look like one :x

anw, went to see the movie timing, and got the one at 2.10pm. we watched LoveMatters :D NC16 but heh :3 we are 16 ! :D sad thing is, i just turned sixteen and now ppl like corrina leslie peiyun 17 liao .____. ergh. btw, the show is nice :D

ehs, then we went shopping, eat, then go home (:

tomorrow Elaine has work D: aww, i wanna play somemore ! D:
and to think i kept complaining abt rotting at home when i got so much time that time D:
well, now different coz dear no more work, then i got work D: hai.. last time opposite wor.
i miss dear so much then i got so upset in the bus when he alighted. hai.
butbutbut ! tmr dear say wanna pei me go work :DD
hee :3
lovee you dear :D

but still... i miss you D:

2009-01-28T20:04:00.002+08:00

Elaine is uberuberduper happy now :D
i donno why, but im just uberuberduper happy :DD

i went to meet dear maa :D hees :3
we had lunch tgt, then we sitsit at voiddeck talk awhile, then i take bus 39 home :D
i loveeee my dear baby shaunnnn luhhh :D

okay, i told you im happy now (: im excited too i dno why.
coz.... me and dear going to vivo tmr to watch movie and shopping ! :D
i wna buy that bag ! that m)phosis bag that i saw one day bfore promnight :D
what movie ah ? i dno leh, think watching THEWEDDINGGAME again :x
nice lor ! i dont mind watching :P

kays lur. i find some time and mood to take pictures tmr, then post on this blog for you all to see yo (if you all want la) :D
i want to :x

kay bye people :D

& im uber jealous of what you have, and what i dont .

2009-01-28T11:33:00.011+08:00

You Liar .
How Could You Lie To Me All This While ..?

ohkay, finally back to blogging :D excited ? haha.

kay, first day of CNY :D

i went to my grandma house. collected most of the angbaos we could think of receiving from, then we all go to bugis :D [dex, and ivan included]

eleanor and min played lan, while me, char, ivan and dex went to waste time while waiting for the movie to start :D so i went to watsons to shop ._. haha. what to do, i work at watsons and had nothing to do thr. machiam tio punished rather than working. then i tent to walk ard, and lol, saw many interesting things to buy.

yeap, went to watch movie. guess what ? we watched THEWEDDINGGAME :D aww, it's so damn funny. kept laughing :D but abit no sense lah. hahas.
it's rated 5STARS by elaine though.

kay, thats all.

now, second day of CNY :D

went to my grandma (mother side) house. watched cardcaptor sakura movie .___. but it's nice alrights ! sakura so cute :D

anw, took care of the kids thr too. ergh. they are sucha pain in the neck. want to die uh look aftr them. but overall kinda cute lah they all (:

this is one of the naughty ones >:] lols. but i like him coz he uber cute. btw, he hugged me once he sees me :D

went to bugis with my brother after that to find my cousins. they played lan, so we waited. then aftr that we went to walkwalk. haha. still as empty as the day before though. so we went home early.

well, now i shall blog about today :D / D:

im currently at home. woke up at 11plus tday since i hadnt enough sleep the past few days. haas. im feeling uber upset now. how could everything turn out this way.. i feel like killing myself.

i hate this world. nothing is the truth, except the truth that the world is just a lie. i really dno what to do now, im just as confused. smile? lols, im lying as well. see? everything is a lie.

how i just wish, everything is back to normal. i dont wna regret anything,
but.. it seems that im about to regret the biggest mistake i made.

btw, the happy thing is that i get to keep $108 from what i collected in angbaos [$308] :D

2009-01-27T16:52:00.002+08:00

currently, im at my grandmother house (:
finally get to get into blogger.com . & also, finally im able to blog. ergh, the kids are really a pain in the neck ! D:
yeap, it's been 254357687654324324 days since i last blogged yo. i will blog soon (: tmr or later :D with pictures too ! :D rest assured, not alot of them are my zilian pictures :D

& boy, i really miss you ):

2009-01-21T20:36:00.002+08:00

Oh dear, You are so in Trouble .

ohkay, met dear tday at 10plus :D heh , then he help me carry my heavy stuff, then headed to tamp mrt. we took the train all the way to queenstown !! OMG. so far hor. but bo bian, needa give my ahma thing :D

pass liao, then headed to bugis. shopped for his stuff, then awhile later, go home ler.

hai, needa wait another week then can meet him out again D:
dear, im so gna miss you luhhhhhh D:

2009-01-20T12:35:00.007+08:00

all it takes is just faith, trust, and pixie dust

SORRY D:

sorry that i didnt turn up for badminton tday D: im so sorry guys/girls. i was uber tired uhs, then i cant wake up. my mummy called me up uber lot of times, then in the end i go back sleep :x then i snooze my alram many times, till it gave up on me, and stop ringing.
im sorry D:

kay, anw, later gna meet ELEANOR in the aftrnoon !!! :DD aww, my dearest cousin luhs :D im soo excited !
heh :3
& you know where we going maa ?
you'll nver believe it. we are going to arab street to look at BARNGBARNG ! :D
no laa. i go thr buy crystals, then aftr that go bugis kiakia :D

((: heh. kay, i needa buy many things uh D:
NEED MONEY ! SOMEONE GIVE ME LEH :D

anw, i miss someone alot D:

i miss my budddddy meishi D:

2009-01-19T19:58:00.002+08:00

heyyoh :D

ohkay, woke up late tday, then faster go meet xuan and fabian at bedok inter :x hahas. fabian thought he is going to be late, so he cabbed down, but in the end, he was the first to reach .___.
haas. i late one hour, worse lor ! feel so guilty. wonder how garret can tolerate the guilts for being late almost every time !

nvermind,met garret in the bus, then we go eastcoast :D
hahas, go mac eat, then talk nonsense throughout everything.

ahhas. rent bikes for like..3 hours for $6.
lol, i always last lor D: so sad. then i got hurt at my leg for like 3 times .___. my leg keep flying out of the pedal D:

okay, no pictures yet, so shall post the pictures soon yo. ahhas

2009-01-18T19:21:00.003+08:00

why can't i have everything ? D:

anw, Elaine is currently feeling "OMG, D:"

ohkay nvermind. anw, went to service tday ! :D heh :3 at first i was thinking of not going coz i was uber tired uh !
i slept at 3am ? woke up at 7am coz i wna go toilet. ERGH. Elaine's bladder, stop doing this to Elaine ! anw, bathed, then slowly go to expo. saw kendrick, then he pass me back my sakura CDs :D YAY ! finally got them back :D

anw, aftr that we went to doubygaut (still dno how to spell) to have our lunch. i got my thumb hurt and it bled D: coz the nail tio cut then also cut into the flesh, so bleed. D: so yuck and pain !!

went to simei aftr my lunch, then go tell them abt my tupid phone. srsly it's tupid. ohkay here goes :
always restart, then,
inbox cannot open, then,
phone cannot on, then .....
SUDDENLY, when im on my way to simei, the phone okay liao ! .____.
tupid lah you w910i ! you played with my feelings D: wan wo de gan qing D:

okay, anw, let them repair lor.
hope they cannot repair. !
then i can get new phone :DDDDD *smiles widely*

okay then went to whitesands, bought a new mirror !
later going find my other mirror. hahas :x

okay,
me and dear okay lerh :D

heh :3

lovee you dearie ♥

2009-01-18T02:30:00.003+08:00

MY TUPID PHONE SPOILED D:

aww, Elaine's phone spoiled. ergh. i guess it's jealous that i looked at other chio-er phones that day, that's why now it is trying to be angry by shutting itself from me.
still, i want a new phone ! :D

anw, went to chalet, yeap, played with cousins and had a get together time with them (: heh :3 talked many things as well, and laughed our ass off.

im tired, but i just couldnt sleep..
i just hope that we'll be fine in 2 days time, means,
12 am on tues (:
takecare alrights ?
call me if thr's anything. :D

2009-01-17T13:59:00.008+08:00

Elaine is feeling "NANANANANANAAA~" :D

ohkay weird feeling, but im like a emo person with a hyperactive mind.
so i will go "ohhh look at my beautiful footprints on the floor"

ohkay nvermind. anw, woke up early tday at ard 10plus, coz dear called me. we kinda quarrelled. but now okay lerh (:
so bathed, eat lunch, then go find dear at his house downstairs.

tupid wind make my hair effing messy. so meet dear, then go to school. signed in, then pass james the amaths textbook while shaun goes to the toilet .__. pass lerh, meet shaun outside, then went outta school, walk to 201 coz dear going play soccer with bryan they all. he go mac, while i go take bus 17 home :D

lemme show you my dinner ytd.

the beehoon is uber dry, and the whole thing is just yuck and plain.
so , since Elaine is so creative, she tried to put .....
!
yeap, it's tomato sauce. :D
it doesnt taste weird. no matter how much tomato sauce i put, still as dry.
i put like 5 packets ? but the part with lots of ketchup is nice :D

ohkay, Elaine is going to chalet later on. my family one. so not alot of pictures i guess,
but i promise i try to have pictures in the nxt post alrights :D

2009-01-16T17:56:00.002+08:00

i was playing pet society :D
then look at the coins !
358 lehhhh :D

thank you furbbi. i love u laa. u made me cheerup (:

and yea, maybe i rely too much on you.
maybe i shouldn't just stick to you like that.
haha.
yes i know im selfish,
but i really don't wish to ever let you go..

2009-01-16T16:06:00.005+08:00

you don't know how much i miss you ..

woke up late tday, faster bathe, then met xuan, quimei, leslie (garret still at home .___.) played badminton for awhile, then went to buy drinks then garret came. i stoned most of the time coz i have no mood to play, also, kinda tired. i played barefooted btw .____. coz im tupid enough to wear slippers thr.

anw, here are some pictures while im stoning thr (:

not very clear coz they were running and moving, and not fast enough for my camera to capture.

anw, played till 12, then we extented the time. leslie went home, then we played till 1pm. walked to mrt, garret went home, then xuan me and quimei went to have our lunch (:

gossiped (:O) and laugh and talk crap alot thr. oh, and we saw brenda and geraldine.

anw, went to look for quimei's book, then xuan's purple carbage. (how to spell?)
then aftr that check our ezlink cards, then went home.

took bus3. then forgot to alight .____. heng i know the shortcut, or i have to walk fcuking far uhs.

kay that's all for tday, i dont have mood to blog anyway ...

i miss you alot dear,
i wna meet you out,
but i just feel,
that you don't want to,
and you are too busy for me..

2009-01-15T23:23:00.003+08:00

Heyoh, I'm Really Stressed Out .

woke up early tday to go find dear. i called him at ard.. 10 plus, and he just woke up. told him i on the way to his house lerh, he said okay. then i wait for bus, then finally bus came, 15 minutes i reached. called dear again, then he just wokeup ! i very angry, then told him a reach alrdy. so i waited at the voiddeck downstairs for like 30-40 mins , then he finally come down luhs ): okay nvermind. (: i very forgiving one, though i will keep complaining. OHYAH, i forgot to give him forfit .____.

anw, anw, we went to print photo, redraw money, then go the kopitiam eat (: heh:3 eat till uber full uhs. then aftr that go shopping and look at phones ! :D i bought my short handphone strap, coz mine lan diao liao. saw PreciousThots and they alrdy preparing for Valentine's ! i cant wait to celebrate with dear :D went to the handphone shop to look at chio phones, OMG, uber chio siaaaaaas. i really wna buy, but mummy say wait till contract end. i went to check and you know what ? it ends this coming december 14th. OMG, it's like waiting for dear's 17th birthday to come D: sooooo long uhs .. so nvermind, we went out, then go school.

looked for tcher, then ask abt the school we wna go to, and the choices we wanna take in JC. heh :3 aftr that went to band, slack and play abit. tday baoshan very bekchek. relax mummy :D
kay, then mrschua finally replied to me at ard 5plus (aftr many hours.) then i met her outside staffroom. discuss abt the school and other things, then go lerh. haha, meet the others, then went to eat at KFC again ! :D hohoho elaine's gna turn fat ! :D .___.

eat lerh, then go pei james to study at macdonald. not really study laa, he doing maths homewk. then me and dear forget alot liao, but still manage to help him in some (:

then dear pei me buy brother dinner, then pei me wait for bus, then i go home while he go pei james. (:

i just submitted my JAE form. yes, im choosing TampinesJC as my first choice (: i'm gna study no matter what. i'm guaikia :D

btw, no pictures, sorry. haaaas. nxt time (:

MJC? nah, you going that's why i don wna go.

2009-01-14T21:03:00.003+08:00

i will nver cry again .

hello readers. kay, shall blog for ytd night and tday (:

ytd , 130109
went to eat dinner with me brother, or rather, pei him eat at macdonalds at whitesands. pei him wait for bus, then when his bus come, i go take mrt, go cityhall. contact lenses drop out half way ( ._____. ) so rushed to rafflescity toilet make wet and put it on. go find dear, who also looking for me, then we went to marinasquare eat yoshinoya. (: heh :3

then aftr that go home, on the way, got some problems. but ohkay on the way lerh, except very quite nia. but it seems that ever since that, we cant communicate well enough...

tday, 140109
slack at home the whole day. used the com, and played facebook games. the petsociety, damn hard to get money lah ): my pet so damn poor now.

anw, went to whitesands with brother in the evening again, to have our dinner. we ate KFC ! heh :3 i missed the zingermeal ^^ then i go redraw money, go buy the shirt that i wanted for a long time, and also the handphone pouch that i wanted :D so fcuking happy !

then went home, used the computer again ):
im srsly rotting. and lol, things are pretty now ..
i feel like going to sleep and forget everything. but lol, i cant sleep these few days, making my life even more miserable ..

& i feel like telling you what's going on in my head ,
but i don't think you will ever understand ,
and will nver want to hear anw .

2009-01-13T16:05:00.003+08:00

i wna scream it all out, FcukShit !

woke up at 12pm plus tday, then went to bathe. use com from 1 till now (now is like 4.12pm) and i'm so not gna shut it down. come'on, my job is postpone, i dno what sub combination to choose, and im all bored out at home. what else to do ? .__________.

ohkay, alot of ppl are reading xiaxue's blog , so i decided to check it out. the only thing that i like abt her blog is the videos that she is showing. lol. really, i watched some alrdy, and it kept me entertained for hours straight ! (: and she made me interested in blingblings again :D im gna get some when i got a new handphone [like corrina's OMG so chio lah. but not gna get the same one] or laptop [ i hope !!] or someother things. oo, elaine is becoming more girly. :D how do you like that ? (:

well, at least im occupied. but good things come to an end so fast. i switch my phone off, coz the tupid w910i sony ericsson phone kinda sot dao, then no vibration no ringtone even when it's NOT in silentmode. i'm so engross in watching the video [is that how you spell engross or isit another word .___.] that i forgot to switch my phone on. why bad thing neh ? coz my boyfriend get so fcuking bekchek trying to reach me but cant. ha. sorry dear. but you dont have to get so fcuking bekchek abt it.

ohkay back to squareone. im still bored and unentertained by everything. ergh. dinner coming soon. what shall i eat ? (:

2009-01-12T19:49:00.005+08:00

happy, or not, i don't know

Hard Work Brings Success

-MsCheng .

went to meet dear (: then went to school to eat our lunch. i was like talking tupid stuff coz my stomach hurts alot. but it was numb by nervousness when i went into the hall.

many were scared, and i wasnt an exception.i was freaky nervous.
ms cheng talked, then we looked at our average. not bad. but still, scared.
then xiaoxuan was top ! :D im so happy for you little one :x ! really, im so proud of you. im not jealous at all, im just happy for you ;D
im also happy for garret, leslie, zhanwei, jiaqi, james, bryan, jiawee, vuichee (:
and lastly, my result is....

L1R5 - 12 (:
english - B3
Combine Humans - B3
Amaths - A1
Emaths - A1
Chinese - A2
Phy - A2
Chem - A2
Biology - A2

im happy for english and physics and amaths (:
physics is a "woah" .
english is " (((((: "
amaths is "^^"
im happy for my chem, coz in sec 4 year, i nver get any As except prelim. the rest all Cs or fail. bio i improve too. english !!! :D
others okay :D
if from prelim compare, i dint really improve so much.
but if compare the whole year, i made alot of improvement for all subjects except combinehumans :x
but still im happy with it, though i want a 10 so badly.
i couldnt get it, im upset i got a 12 coz it's below my target.
but, not bad elaine ((: im contented aftr thinking hard abt it.
thanks for those who console me. im fine now (:
and yes, im happy with what i got tday :D

now, whr to go nerh ?
MJC, or TPJC ? haha.
FUNNY THING, my dream came true ! OMG ):

congrats shaunkwan for getting 15 too (: though it's not what you wanted,
still you improved alot ! i mean alot.
you got 20 plus (i think 27) for prelim, now u get 15 leh !
omg, you should be happy eh ! :DDD
im proud of you dear ((:

whatever it is, lol, it's over.
so people dont get so upset or anything. (:
you've done well.
though not ur target, but it's what you have acheived.
be happy abt it (:
jiayou in the future yo !

2009-01-12T11:22:00.001+08:00

OMG, im fcuking scared now.
in like less than 3 hours it's gna be results time D:
ARGH.
i hope i will do well D:
srsly, i want good results. please D:

anw, my period come tday. what does it mean .____.

2009-01-10T12:31:00.005+08:00

yea baby, it's money im talking abt .

woke up at 11pm ! heh, im not pig yea. why ? because, i slept at 2am plus ytd just becoz i cant get to sleep ! it's awful not being able to sleep when u wna sleep damn badly ohkay. so if you are tired and feel like sleeping, be glad abt it (: sleep is much more precious than what you think.

later gotta wear school uniform :O so long nver wear liao, wonder if i can still fit inside. need to go to the tupid cereomony lorrrrrrr. that tupid boring waste time long boring tupid cereomony (how to spell .___. ?) at CC to collect my KAACHING ( $$ ) ! hehheh. according to xuan it should be $500 since she say it will be $350 if need write back a letter, which i dont have to :D but still, will be banked in, no $500 for me D:

anw im kinda surprise if i really get $500. coz sec 4 i dint really put in any effort in the first half of the year.
hello ? L1R5 for commontest - 18 for Midyear - 20 .____. my mindset that time was "how to get top 10%?". so i nver dream so much abt the $500 im gna get at the end of the year. but prelims i did work hard (: i know i did. so maybe the money comes frm that effort. LOL. i dno. later come back frm that tupid boring waste time long boring tupid cereomony then come back blog abt it yea (:

----after the long boring cereomony----

YEAH, $500 ;D
unbelievable, i know .____.

the cereomony not that boring, coz i made a new friend thr (: she is kind, and frm loyang sec (: heh. i forgot the name coz i only heard once when she go up the stage. :x my primary schoolmate, also elainechua, sit beside me again (:

anw, i reached thr like 2pm ? .____. then the whole thing end ard 345pm. first, we are to wait to go up onto the stage to get a mock cheque. (envelope with nthin inside) then still need to wait for our turn to get the real cheque.

ohkay, here is a picture of my dinner last night :D
KFC ! with whippotato upsized !

lol, i created a new blog, not for ppl to read ;D heh. a personal blog.
it's really personal, forexample if im angry at Jane,
i will put her name so big, and open, and maybe say all her flaws, for my diary to read. heh.
kinda nice to flare up thr rather than here since here ppl will get offended.
cool right.
i dint invite anyone though .___.
im planning to just treat it as a "angry" diary,
so i can vent everything out thr, openly, happily. (:
this way i wunt gossip to others.
i gossip with myself instead :D
so it's kinda healthy ;D

anw..
im sorry dear, for shouting at you over the phone for no reason ..
i know im wrong, sorry.
really sorry D: i feel real bad for shouting.
i was impatient that time actually.. sry,
im really really sry ..

2009-01-09T17:39:00.013+08:00

boy, i just loveee you so much :D

ohkay, woke up at 12 pm :x bathed, then use the computer. use lerh, wait for brother to bathe, then we start puzzleling. ^^

i started doing the puzzle alittle first, then came my brother to help. we're done in less than an hour ! (: song bo !

i glued the puzzle, and it's done (: framed it up, then wrap the puzzle. (:

victory !

yea i love wearing peTshirts.
my brother looks nice in the photo yea (:

anw, rewarded ourselves with...
NACHOS !

i watched TV aftr that. have you girls,boys,guys,ladies watched powerpuffgirlsz yet ?
it's nice (: better than powerpuffgirls.
serious ! not kiddy lah, like normal anime lor (:

i watched this since ytd :x nthin to do mah.
haa.
cartoons are nice ohkay (: still my fave category of TV programs.

anw, dear's been working for the past days, and i've been staying home coz no work .____. i thought that i finally got job, in the end frm 2jan drag till 23rd .___.
nvermind, but im happy now. coz dear still very good to me, when on leave he still pei me (: thank you lah dear (: woaini <3

2009-01-08T20:31:00.006+08:00

i don't wna lose you boy . ♥

Went to swimming with dear tday ! (:
woke up at 6am coz of my brother .____. ytd cant sleep at all luh ! toss & turn on bed from 10plus to 12/1plus. bekchek sia, whenever going to sleep, my brother sleeptalk or hit the side bed waking me up with a fright ):

anw, woke up at 6am, then played psp till 745am then go bathe. dear asked me to call him back at 815am, in the end he bekchek, say he don wna wake up, say 5mins zai call .___. so i called him back at 830am, then ask him go bathe and prepare. i left house, reached intermac at 856am, called dear, he still at home ! >:(

so i waitwaitwait, then dear ask me to go to mac cafe wait. i buy medium milo, $2.60. wait for dear, then he finally come after 16minutes ! then he say i waste money, then he go buy me another meal for $2, with milo also .____. end up we got 3 milos altgt . tabao one of them, then bring to the pool :x

we reached, then dear forgot bring my goggles ! not mine ah, but he said he wna bring for me .____. in the end nver bring. end up i complain alot while swimming, then plus i cannot really swim properly coz i keep standing up to clear the water away frm my eye D:

but i did try (: hee. go bathe, then meet dear outside. when i come out, dear's hair dry liao .___. i really take very long. budden the ppl in the toilet fcuking noisy lah. they were like talking loudly like nobody's business, treating me as deaf.

went to eat lunch with dear at foodcourt 4thlvl at centurysquare (: eat lerh, then dear buy dessert ^^ aftr that walk ard, then i go home bathe, bathe lerh meet dear later in the evening again (:O) to go buy my mummy present. we both fcuking tired. so we nver talk alot. walkwalkwalk, in the end found mummy present (: buy dinner for brother, saw fazrina, effa, nazri and one or two more band members in kfc (: walk to dear house busstop, wait for bus, then go home lerh (:

and my tupid job is postponed to 23rd of jan luh !!! work for 5 days aftr that, $200plus nia D: only my outlet de tio postponed ): fcuk lah, so suay _l_

btw, just finished watching spongbob the movie :x so freaky cute cans !

btw, dear, i reach home lerh ! kay i told you :x anw, im missing you alrdy D':
wna meet you up soon, not nxt wk laaaaa TT

sry dear for being moody tday,
im just thinking alot ):
sry, but im fine now (:
thanks for blowing into my eyes
to clear the irritant away
so sweet of you,
and tday,
you were really sweet
for no reason,
im attracted to you even more.
i love you ♥

2009-01-07T17:46:00.005+08:00

Moooodddyyyy ):

ohkay, wani! just msged me saying that results on 12th jan (:
phew, at least i don't have to receive the results this friday. i will have panick attack ):
yes, i'm scared..
scared that i wun't do well, scared that i couldnt go to the same school as dear,
scared of bad results, and just scared.
D:

ohkay, here's the plans.
tmr go swimming with dear !
the end (:

*dear, i wna watch ponyo ):

like finally i got something to do this week ! past few days hav been lazing at home doing NOTHING !

omg, im proud to be a survivor of boredness.

ytd went to meet dear at night to eat dinner ;D
im sooo happy when he say wna go eat tgt.
haa. coz we seldom get the chance to meet these few days ):
anw, we had lots of fun ytd while eating :x
i ate damn long lah .___.

ohkay, back with pictures tmr (:

byebye ;D

2009-01-07T14:10:00.004+08:00

Audition Stress .___.

wtf, i play audition also stress till bite myself .___. i regretted that bite, coz the mark over thr like so.. yuck ._. but at that moment i was fcuking stress alrights ._. but it's stupid lah, to bite urself when u play audition .____.
i thought audition can make me feel better, since im trap at this fcuking home all alone with nthin better to do. go out also wrong .___. WhatTheFcuk ? cannot go out then at home watch the house ah. also nthin valuable. all you and daddy things.

nahbei eh.
want play also lag, then tio insulted by ppl again and again .
better than me just keep to yourself,
dont have to go round the bush, then say me yo ?
_l_
sorry, but i cant tolerate these stuff.

&my hand is getting worse. without the moisturizer, my hand is like a dead woman's hand. those wrinked and dark kind. feel like chopping my hand now.

i'll be working in two days time.
currently not in the mood at all.
dear is working and nver reply my msges. lol.
nvermind then.
i'll go sleep.

2009-01-06T15:52:00.011+08:00

on a boring day of holiday i just got nthin better to do ):

this is what i do when im bored .______.

when it kinda helps. i think .___. puke if you want, but keep the nasty stupid comments to yourself. thank you .

anw, woke up at 12pm tday. bathed, then bring brother go see doctor. 3rd day of school jiu headpain, nver go school. LOL, first time see lehs. we ate, then wait for the clinic to open, then the girl infrnt of me uber long uhs .___. so long, then i stand thr baimei, wait for my turn.

aftr that, went to take 21 to tamp. waited for james at the voiddeck, then pass him the biology book and the cardcaptor cd for xingyou to watch :x heh, james kept laughing when he saw the disc.

anw, headed to guardian, then bought my small shampoo. hah ! thursday going swimming with dearie ((: *big wide smile showing teeth* im so happy uh. soooo long nver swim lerh !

ard one year i think :x later i forget how to swim then drown ._.

ohkay, like what dy says, i should smile differently. let me tell you why i dont wna to.

TADA ! .___.

so ugly lah .

anw, im very sad for my ugly hand right now. it looks so old and wrinkled and ugly lahh. ): i want those hands that are smooth and white, not like mine. it's like .... worn out. i put moisturiser lerh, still likethat )': *sobs.

2009-01-05T13:43:00.018+08:00

spell Bored for me D:

srsly, im bored.
boredboredboredboredbored !
sian, nthin to do. audition got patch .____. or rather, maintanence.
then cant play at all. D:
when i switch on the com, i was hoping to play something.
in the end, my hope was ruined by reality ._.

as you can see, i changed my blogskin, AGAIN
im bored, not copy or anything .___.
this is my previous skin. i just dont like the plain clickclick one.
then i editeditedit,
and im kinda proud of myself (:

ohkay aftr that, i end up bloghopping,
then....
go take pictures .____.
ahya, i sooo long nver take picture liao,
let me just post them up for viewers to puke and laugh alrights ?
anw, this way, my blog wunt be so wordy like bfore (:
i love blogs with pictures. even if the pictures are ugly, it is surely more interesting
than wordy posts (:

so if you're bored at home, but couldnt sleep coz someone isnt thoughtful enough to let you sleep longer, then you can do one of the following (:
-Sleep again
-Eat as many tibits when you watch Tv
-Go on a MovieMarathon by yourself
-Zilian (selflove) / camwhore
-Edit your Camwhored pictures
-Bloghop
-Edit blogskin
-Play Audition .____.
ohkay, what i just wrote are simply craps. but you can do them if you want.
they are kinda, interesting and help-to-burn-time-fast chores (:

ohkay, entertain me now ! D:
i wna go out sooooo badly D:

2009-01-05T11:27:00.003+08:00

ever heard of a saying : " say people, say yourself " ?

LOL, you said that i was sensitive .___. then what do you call urself ? lols. even worse ohkay. worse than me. are you a girl or a boy. come'on laa

anw, i was woken up by dear's calls. i kup the phone, he call back. i kup again, he call back. then when i finally answer, he say "wna check on me " .____. then when put down ler, i read his msg, it goes "wake up ler ma?" hai, i sleeping then you call... i alone at home lehhhh D: nthin to do. then u wake me up ):

ohkay, now dno what to do liao. tupid la. mummy ask me to buy dinner for brother when he ends school at 530pm ! wtf ? he come home so late might as well go eat dinner or tabao himself ? then you know what is her reply ?
"later he very troublesome lah. you go buy for him lo"
._____. ergh. i still need to purposely go out leh ._.

2009-01-04T17:04:00.002+08:00

9th , 12th , 15th ?

lols, im like confused of the date of the day we receive the results uhs .__. nvermind, i don wna get the results anyway. even if i get 10points, and i did get into Mj, im kinda, "not happy" in a sense that i work so hard to get a 10 and below score inorder to get into MJ yet other ppl dsa-ed over with 20 points ._. no offence to anyone, but i kinda against the idea of dsa-ing over. (: at the same time, i dont think i can get the 10points. furthermore, my parents wunt care much fuck abt my good results. they only care if the results are bad.

anw, now im real bored. psp dont entertain me alrdy, and the computer is just an excuse to waste time. i wna go out, ): but alot of ppl either cannot, too far, or for the time being busy.
hai. im rotting at home. work haven even start coz the stock haven arrive. D:

lols, i used to think my family as a good one. but LOL, as years past and i grow up, i dont find listening to them and being a good girl at home good. anw, what i did didnt really bring anything good to me (: i wna be good girl though. but no use one lah.

*please dont comment on this post. these are my thoughts. continue to read but keep the comments to yourself . thank you.

anw, being a 16th year old, i still aint really happy with my current life. yes im happy with the relationship with my dear boy, but others aint really "good" in a sense. i wish i can just live life with dear and shopping centers and lots of cash and good food and a nice house and also some good friends of mine. others can just vanish into the air. i dont need them coz they just make my life like shit. i just hope those that treat me like nasty, will get back their retributions. im not saying this to anyone in particular, just random .__.

kay end of post. bye .

2009-01-04T10:55:00.004+08:00

heyyyoh (:

ytd had a great time with dearie (: but the process of waiting, aint fun at all D:
ohkay, i went out of my house at 640pm, and i told my mummy that i going out for dinner with friends to celebrate birthday. (i lied 69%)
nvermind, headed to funan digital mall at cityhall, then called dear. he was like
"why you come so early !"
.____. he told me to reach at 730pm der lorh..
then i walked ard aimlessly, feeling that alot of ppl staring at me , especially those salesperson who were waiting for their customers that havent arrived. i waited till my stomach growl, and my legs turn jelly uhs D: wait till 820pm he then come out. (:

i wna eat swensens D: but in the end we went to subway to eat again ;D eat lerh, then i still hungry, so went to buy chicken pie ;D then frm thr, we go home lerh.
in the train dear play psp D: soccer again D:
then he send me home, then he go home liao (:
i love you dear,
happy eight month tgt (:

i dint take pictures ! again D:
im so sad luhs, my blog dont have pictures D:
nvermind, found one long time ago picture, so post for fun ._.

nah.

2009-01-03T15:49:00.003+08:00

Happy Eighth Monthsary Dear ♥

haha, tday though it's our eigth month, we didnt manage to go out For the time being ^^ hee, later going to find dear aftr his work, then we go mammam :D

ohkay, woke up at 11am (i finally can sleep at night !) then went to play audition. haas. then brother wna play so i went to pack my cupboard. haha, im satisfied with it now, coz it has lesser clothes (means can find clothes easier) and neater. sorry, no picture, so imagine ;D

went to play my daddy psp, harvest moon ! hee :3 my gameboy is with shaun, and the harvest moon for GBA is spoiled. so i cant play that ): i miss the gameboy one coz it wunt make ur head pain.

anw, im srsly bored now. kinda bored of audition coz no one to play with since my cousins arent online, so i logout. but im kinda happy that i won ppl who chance 6, while i chance 3 with my hand shivering .___. cant believe i survived it.

oh well, im bored now, and also angry at one person. feel like scolding the person but, hah, i'll be a kind soul to let the person go, and be a devil by complaining to others. :x hahaha, shaun will be the unlucky one later (:

ohkay, i go eat my lunch alrdy. hopefully time flies and soon i'll meet my beloved dear ♥

2009-01-02T22:56:00.005+08:00

hello 2009 (:

how's school ? course i don't have ! :x

ohkay, i finally meet my dear tday ! aftr like so many times, we finally went out tgt (: abt 1wk ;D im so happy, and yea, tday we had a lot of fun uhs ;D

waited for him , then aftr that went to find his mummy at kfc. saw minsan, yiyan, yongxiang, wenqiang, and a few others that i cant rmb thr too. lols, they went to play bball bah (: anw, went to tamp mall frm thr, then eat longjohn ;D dear ordered the clamchouder(soup) which is so ex, yet so small. ohkay, went shopping for his jeans aftr that ;D walked in and out of the stall, then cant find anything. we went to levis, and the jeans were like $100+++++. then went to fox, then went out. wna go leecooper, but dear say he don wan coz they don wna hire him .___. then went to fox and blabla. in the end i shop :x i went to arena, then look at the swimming costumes ^^ hahas. then aftr a long time thr, i finally bought one at 50% discount ;D im so happy uhs. aftr that, went to leecooper, and i asked them for dear's wanna-have-type of jeans. then they say have. saw it, then dear like. but it cost $109. so i went to redraw money (sounds like i have alot, but no, redraw liao become no money) for dear, then we went back to try. while trying, the woman said : "this one very nice, and it has 15% discount, become $93.45 (: "
we were like " ._________________________.''' now then tell us"
i laugh, then dear went to try another size (HAH, FAT) coz cannot fit [^.^] hahahaha

kay, went to walk ard century square , then go montique (i think this spelling la). stay thr for very long till dear bekchek. bought brastrap ler, then went to BHG walkwalk. heh, then i pull dear go bra section .__. (i wna see ohkay) then he paiseh say i purposely when im not, then he pull me away to the man's brief section. but i not so paiseh coz got one saleswoman thr folding underwear. so im safe ;D then he just bring me out (i win ^^) then we go look at shoe and polotee. bought nthin, but stupid funny memories *smile widely*

went to interchange to change the color of my top, then went back to tamp, then bought thing to drink ;D haha, we drink MILO DINOSAUR frm MAC ;D hee, $2.60 .__. so ex, but nvermind, tday is the day whr we spent like as if we are rich lady and boy , and be happy ;D anw, my logic is "try la, new thing ma"

waited fcuking long for the milodino thing, coz machine jam. then aftr a long while, and calculation, we decided to eat macspicy meal, fries change to twisterfries, total = $7.05
i sponsor, $7, dear sponsor me $0.05 (: then we eat lorh.
the woman infrnt of me like what uh, so long. wna tabao food, still wna talk on phone while ordering .___.

ohkay la, we went home and talktalk and miss alot of bus(for me) and then go home lor.
the end.
for tday.

&&&, DEAR tmr or later, will be our 8th monthsary lerh !

i lovee you ♥

OHYAH, results ( i heard ) it's not on the 9th, but 15th jan ;D

btw,i havent let the matter rest.ohkay. _l_

2008-12-31T17:47:00.002+08:00

here i am, thinking too much

went to band tday ;D

went to meet wani and dear at inter mac, then we end up sitting thr and laughing at our daily lifes. (: it's stupid okay. like the one abt dear's customer and wani's lost handphone :x

i share you one that i can rmb clearly.

here goes :

auntie wna buy printer,

then shaun asked "auntie, you got print things hor"

auntie say "yeah"

shaun say "then you buy everything la, including paper"

auntie ask "paper got expiry date not ?"

shaun say "auntie, this one paper, not food "

okay, i laugh when i heard that, and shaun was like "the auntie so cute la, so retarded"

*sry if i post wrongly .___. should be almost the same la

anw, went to band, played doremon and spongbob. so long nver see the score, i forget how to play liao. then thr was sectional, then choosing of piccolo player. then aftr that receive my certificate and keychain for genting, then went to canteen to have the "celebration"

LOL, it's not even pizza laa .__. it's like, packet rice with two chicken (i think) and one chicken drumlet. so much of getting a Gold

went to TM later with weiqian (qianqian :x) , cassandra, carmen. then weiqian (qianqian) and cassandra went to photocopy score ( i think ) while me and carmen went to look for jueying (: walked ard, then go kajiao bingkun who is working in preciousthots (or isit preciousthoughts?) :x he was like, slacking laa, keep talking to us then nver work .__.

went down, then carmen go find her parents, huili went home sleep, then me and jueying went to walkwalk ;D i bought two clothes, hopefully can pei the bottom i bought. if cannot, then i nxt wk or something go bugis then buy another top ): hahas. anw, i kinda spoil one of the top i attempt to try .___. i kinda pull it, then the thin strap snap :x i was like "ohshit" then stuff it back ._.

yeap, pei jueying wait for friend, then aftr that went to 21 busstop. sit quite awhile, then jueying know she dont have her ezlink card with her :/ then she pei me till my bus come, then she go.

dno if you will ever read this, but thanks again, for peiing me to shopping tday , and just tday (:

thank you jueyinggggg ! ;D i lovee you laaaaaa senior aka friend !

2008-12-30T19:31:00.002+08:00

Shop, Shop, Shopppp ♥

yeap, went to meet qianqian at bugis ;D hahas. we walked very long, and lols, walk alot of rounds, then finally decided to buy the sandle we've been looking for (: then headed down to cityhall to go pennisula (or whatever) to buy our jeans ;D tried alot laa, then the sizes so different frm NF ones. walked in and outta shops, then in the end buy from those shops that sell jeans of small cutting ): but we managed to buy what we intent to (: except me, im left with the tops. D: two of them, and i dno what to buy D:

anw, had fun tday ;D no pictures though ): hahas. wna take some, but nver take coz i dint suggest .__.

went home, then wna sleep uhs D: so tired. srsly, i am lacking of my sleep. i sleep late at night, then wake up early in the morning. even if i lie on my bed at 9plus, i will sleep at ard 11plus. then i will wake up 8-10am in the morning ! ergh D: im so bekchek ):

tmr got band ): ergh, i gotta drag myself thr. i dno wna go coz need to pay $13 ! ergh. i owed the band fund $13 uhs.. sian diao. i don wna give my precious money to band D:

anw, tmr got celebration also ;D then dear say wna go thr with me, but leaving early. FINALLY can meet dear ler ! im so happy, and excited ;D

ohyea, these few days me and dear de r/s better alotalotalot lerh ;D hahas ((: no more quarrels. heh heh :3 loveeee you manys dear ! ♥

2008-12-30T09:51:00.003+08:00

ohkay, im bored now and i cant play audition coz of the tupid maintainance from 10am-12pm D: furthermore, i'll be out by then ): so, i still cant play my audition. so much of waking up early tday. [i woke up at 8plus am for God's sake ! ergh, i wna sleep but keep sleeping late and waking up early D: ] also hor, brother haven log out of his psp game so i cant play it as well. ):

later gna go out with qianqian ! (: aww, my cute mei. we are gna buy chineseneyyearclothes ! kinda early, but yea, excited uhs ;D hai, dno what to wear lor. so many to choose, yet, i dno what to wear .____. LOL. dno la. *headpain

kay la, i dno what else can i say now. oh yea, shaundear wan me to post something regarding to him (:

here goes..

he got $150 in 3days ;D hahas. *clap clap clap

ohwell, bye, gna wake my brother up to finish his game then gimmme play >:)

2008-12-29T22:18:00.005+08:00

ergh, wna scream ! ==

went to tamp mrt wait for latehuixian. then reached tanjiongpagar at 2pm for training again ._. im working at rafflescity from 12pm-9pm. (: haas.

finished, then went to cityhall then got lost .__. i walk out of raffles city when i wna go funan. hahas. call dear he nver answer ): then call huixian. found the place. saw dear, talk awhile then go bugis .___. it's like so damn fast laa. D: i so sad. anw, waited for my brother then go bugis to buy his bag. then his bag look like shaun's but got two more pocket at the side, and one extra zip at the cover.. but it's cheaper luhs. $28 sia.

meet my parents then went to eat steamboat.

went home. then use com.
argued with dingyang, then with my parents. fucking angry uhs .
actually uber happy der uhs, coz i did my lvl17 license in only two rounds! then i did fm for 188bpm ;DDD

end up spoiled by both parties. erghhhhh.

fucking angry with my brother mummy daddy lah.

2008-12-28T00:54:00.002+08:00

okay, im srsly bored at cck. keep fighting over the computer although thr is like 5 computers thr. .___. hahaas, too bad only 3 of them are working "properly" for audition, that's why. anw, lols,
talked to dear on the phone ;D and he say wna buy for me one tigger softtoy for me to hug to sleep when he get his pay ^^ yay, then i got new thing to hug alrdy ! my bigbig piglet so dirty liao .__. dno why got bloodstains, and brownish thingy on the leg uhs -.- then i don dare to hug. then another one is the mushroom, i wna hug it badly, but keeps ending up on the floor, then i don dare hug also. scared got more pimple D: haas. anw, i want that tigger ! i wna hug something dearshaunnnn give me ;D

okay, enough of that, lols, hung up the phone with dear after much nego-ing with him ._. dear miss me too much uh, dont wan me put down :x hehs .
meanwhile, while talking to dear on the phone, happily, brother used my acc to play. dno what happened, but lols, get into some sort of trouble which im not really clear of, and dont wna know also. lols, but i know, that my cousins and my brother didnt ask for Y to come into the picture in the first place. and now Y is angry when we didnt even wna meet him in the first place in audition. hahas. anw, just let this go. btw, dont talk ill abt my brother, coz your attitude may not even be better .

2008-12-27T20:01:00.002+08:00

Bored, means Bored D:

okay, im in my cousin house now ;D haas. woke up at 1130am in the morning tday , haas, then mummyu woke me and brother up .__.

went to bathe, prepared, then went to take bus 39 to kranji i think. then take mrt to cck. was playing my psp. hahaas, im playing harvest moon ;D soo cute uhs. in a few days only, i alrdy won cliff's heart, which turned to blue alrdy !

anw, played the computer, and yea, bored. dear working D: and he was complaining too :x

oh yea, i found the web for the favicon alrdy ;D hahas, finally uhs, i lost it, then i dont have favicon for a long time, untill now ;D it is http://pink-inc.co.nr/ . i used to use frm thr, then i lost the website ._.

okay laa, gtg alrdy, byes ;D

2008-12-26T19:12:00.008+08:00

love, beats hate .

yes dearies, christmas is over just like that D: so fast, and christmas is over..*flashbacks* i rmbed, how i celebrated last year, and the year bfore, when i just accepted christ on christmas day 2006. i rmbed, ard 21st december, i went to dover (i think sarah's hse) to attend a celebration held by cellgrp S28. they were celebrating jame's birthday too, and i rmbed, that junidah and i wna go thr, and bought a mickeymouse cup for him (:
the ppl were friendly, and thr is one nice jiejie, weilin who treated me very nicely and showed me ard. then thr was the word, by yilun, which really touched my heart alot .. it's abt how much God loves us, and the plan he had planned for our future, our future that has been laid nicely for us. i was touched, as well as afraid coz thr is a presence, and also, ppl ard me speaking in weird language which is tongues.
on christmas itself, i accepted christ, and many things slowly changed in my life. things happened, and i decided nver to go back now..
2years past, and in 2008, i backslided, and yes, i really wna go back to church, but i just don't want to i don't know why .. i missed God badly, i missed the church, and those things God taught me before, i start to put them aside. and haas, i begin to curse, hate and everything, which made things even worse. you see, if you love and forgive, you will not feel threathened in anyway if your enemy approaches you. you wunt feel awful when your enemy "copy" you (: haas, that's the good things. but christmas passed, and i didnt go back to church anymore. i wish, one day i will find the courage again, and walk down to the alter, and accept you again as my friend, Jesus.
i still believe in Jesus though, but sometimes i dared not believe too. i don't wna believe that i will go to hell, that one day thr will be the jugement day.. i only believe , that Jesus will help me when i need him, and be thr for me when i cry.

*it's just my feelings, so you can don't care the content. so no offence if i wrote anything offensive.

anw, slacked at home the whole day ._. did practically nthin except watching Tom&Jerry and playing the computer. at ard 3-4plus, ate maggiemee, again, and just when i had finished, dear called to tell me that his tuition is done. then we planned to meet at blk444 to eat our lunchdinnertea . i dint eat though, hahaas, i eat abit of dear's.

bought waffle, then dear feed me till my mouth tio chocolate, then he laugh at me ): anw, the knife at my handphone dropped off D: then when i brought it home to wash it, it fell into the holes of the sink .__. so much for bringing it home.
anw, hope dear like the christmas present (: haas, kinda girlie, but you told me you like tigger, and that tigger is cute (: hope you will sleep with it, or just put nicely on your study table ;D

lols, hope nxt christmas i will receive manymany presents (: i did received a little this year.. hope nxt year i will get what i want (: hees.

and sometimes, i feel forgotten and betrayed. i tried hard to pick myself up from this bad fall that other ppl caused it. i took the hurt while others took the laughters and joyfulness of me getting hurt. i swallowed it, and told myself that these ppl will be cursed by me, that one day they will fall badly themselves and experience how much they hav hurt me. i hate these people, and hopefully, wunt see them again.

ohh, and does anyone knows how to sleep at night ? i mean, i cant sleep the past few days. it took me a veryveryvery long time to fall asleep .__. for many days i've been tossing and turning on my bed for 2hours. ergh.

kay, i go slack further more alrdy. will update again when im bored ;D

oh btw, i ♥ you shaunn

2008-12-25T19:05:00.007+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS ! ♥

met dear at 9plus am under his block. actually wna meet at 830am derh, in the end both cannot wake up, so we meet later :x anw, went to take mrt to expo to catch the christmas service in CityHarvest (: was late actually, so i pull shaun walk faster.. sorry dear, for pulling u to walk so fast though your leg kinda tio sprain. *sayang sayang*

anw, the service was great. pastor talked abt us being kept in the dark of fear, doubt, disappointment, and distress. it's what i needed to hear, and really, the message, to me today, is for me (: thank you God. btw, happy birthday Jesus . ♥

finished service, then immediately open weilin give me der present :x excited uhs ._. but anw, i loveeeee it luh (: thank you weilin !

took mrt to bugis, then went to eat. heh, shaun suggested to buy korean, so we ate from the same stall, different dish. almost the same though. but i hate mine, coz it really taste like the maggiemee my mummy cooked last time. and i hate the taste D:

went to collect the tickets i booked online ytd (: brought along mummy's credit card, heh. in case need to sign or whatever, mummy even wrote a letter :x hahaas. heng dont need .

oh yah, haven pay mummy money.

slacked ard bugisjunction, then damn sian, finally find seat to sit, then over thr talk crap and nonsense and camwhore which kinda fail ..

anw, we watched BedTimeStories ! ;D aww, the guineapig so fcking cute ! then the two little children also (: overall is nice, but the movie ended too early D:

it's nice.

and LOL, i checked alrdy !

the actor of Don't Mess With the Zohan and BedTimeStories is the same guy,

called ADAM SANDLER (:

hehs, see i told you shaunnnnnnnn, they are the same guy !

went home after that, wna go watch nightlights at orchard, in the end cannot, so nvermind, dear alrdy promise me nxt year must go watch tgt ;D

hees, btw, i nver blame you dear, (:

i still love you the same even if no chance to watch nightlights during this christmas ♥

kay laa, had dinner alrdy and it's maggie mee .___.

heng i go out, or christmas will be like normal sian day for me if i stay at home. see ah, when i come home, mummy packing the messytable, daddy watching Tv, didi playing maple ._.

then most prob, (if i stay at home) i will either be snatching com from didi, or just sleeping.

im tired okays !

haas, now didi watching Don'tForgetTheLyrics S'pore. the first woman so fast out :0

anw, i still dont really like the program coz Spore like so copy uhs.

american have what, spore also have ..

tsk, hate it.

kay la, merry x'mas to everyone yea ! (:

if too much money, can always buy a belated present for me ! :D

bye bye ;D

-add ons-

what the fck laa. secondary fours and fives have to clear our "Debts" of band fund before graduating from school? what the fck can ?

first is need to go back to band till end of 2008, now this.

chalet need to pay,

bbq need to pay, coz band fund no more money.

but we now pay band fund for what ?

feed the other juniors so that their outing will be free? pay now also bo yong uhs.

wtf is the problem uhs.

oh no, im gna miss my dear boy so much D:

dno when will be the nxt time i can meet him out ... );

2008-12-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

i'm nver successful ,
no matter how hard i try ..

2008-12-23T22:06:00.003+08:00

Have Your Own Color And Dont Steal Mine !

met dear to eat in the late morning, then meet cheeminhui, her sister, and her sister's friend at intermac and took bus to angmokio (:
gossiped and stone alittle.
boy, the bus ride sure is long .__.
shopped thr,
bought alot of clothes, not me la .
haas, minhui keep looking out for shuaige.
too bad for her, tday dont have :x
then awhile later went to bugis at 5plus.
shopped thr till i no money with me need to withdraw ._.
hahas,
saw serene in one of the shops. (:
walk ard somemore, then went home.
had a great time tday coz keep laughing at other ppl, and many other things.
was tiring too. hahahas.
went home at 8plus, and yea im very tired.
we kept walking, and yea, bought alot of clothes ;D
for me, only two. hehs.
but yea, long time no see her alrdy !
ever since.. many months ? (:
hahahas,
anw, yea, tmr going bugis again :/
hahhaas, gna buy somemore, xD

kay end here. bye ;D

2008-12-22T20:27:00.007+08:00

In Deep Thoughts .

forced myself outta bed cause i need to bring my brother to school to buy his textbooks.
haas,
bought, then went home, took my bag,
then went to meet xuan and garret at tanahmerah. ( :
they were all late FYI !
although i told them i will be late, they were still late.
HAA.

okay, headed to tiongbahru, and we started to talk abt all the science stuff .__.
*head hurts.
headed to kopitiam cause all of our stomach are all growling alrdy .
ate fishandchips !
long time no eat.

anw, see, how sweet garret is to help xuan to cut her fish ^^

walk ard and end up playing with toys and torturing them in MoreThanWords :x

then went to watch YesMan !! ;D
we are the first ones ._.

the movie was OHH-SO-NICE uhhhhhs !
MUST-SEE movie (:
i kept laughing. cause, srsly, it's funny.
nxt stop, BedtimeStory with dear on Christmas ! (:
sorry nver watch YesMan with you .. ):

headed to outrum park,
waited for mrschua,dingyang,corrina,peiyun,mdmyue,jason,james (:
headed to the hospital to do visiting.
(not saying anything else)
patient is sleeping so we went to delifrance to eat.
mdm yue treat us ! ;D
heh, lucky us eh ((:
went back, finish visiting ,
then head home ..
(:

im just glad im home,
im sooo tired.
tmr going out again !
if thr is pictures, i will upload them.
the blog is kinda wordy D:

*extra, dont have to read this.*
mrs chua told me something, and i thought abt it and a feeling of afraidness came upon me. i don't know what to say, but she is definitly more experienced than me, and when ppl gives advices, it isn't crap, but it is because they experience it before .. she had seen the bfore and after, and now tells me the results, which i don't see coz im now at the so-called "bfore". im srsly afraid, and i dno what to do now..

will guys really change when they grow more mature ?

will their mindset really change when they enter the "realworld" ?

will everything that is sweet,loving,romantic now still be sweet,loving,romantic in the future, or just turn bitter, and the relationship ends ..?

will the relationship that is loving and sweet just end when both parties grow up and mature ? will every happiness now for me, turn into saddness a few years down the road...?

will forever become nver ?

will evrything change ?

i really don't know, and i am really confuse.

i don't wna doubt.

but, i am really afraid that i wna just hide in one corner to cry..

srsly, im afraid ...

2008-12-21T22:02:00.002+08:00

okay , im veryveryvery bored now.

homed alrdy,
and HAHA i received my early christmas presents from my relatives;D
haven really open yet, but i like them ;D

okay, nxt few days will be enjoyable days for me ;D
monday - thursday all go out ;DDD
im sooo excited.
and HAHA, nxt monday im gna get my pay ^^
hees.

okay, nvermind, gtg lerh. bye ;D

& dear,

i miss you damn lots ! <3

2008-12-21T19:00:00.004+08:00

define bored .

currently im still at my maternal grandma hse.
haas, im bored okay,
wna use computer but no privacy coz got alot of ppl thr.
just finished dinner, so managed to sneak into the room to use the computer :D

time flies, and LOL now we are in the christmas season yea ;D
so excited dno for what reason,
maybe bcoz dear said and promised to bring me out on christmas (:
im going for the service too.
but not sure what time yet.
i haven buy present for my dear yet,
so i'll buy later this week when dear is working (:
heh heh, i seldom buy presents for ppl on christmas u know.
i think only last year.
haas.

anw, im missing dear like dno what now,
as if i didnt meet him for 545554576765 years.
haas..
i wish i could meet him soon,
D:
i miss you damn loads dear,
really.
i just cant wait for christmas !

ytd was in my cousin house.
auditoned till like 2am plus.
LOLs,
then taxied home,
slept at 4am plus.
tday cannot wake up in the morning to meet dear D:
we planned to go to the beach tday,
but....
dear nver call me wake up,
then nver go ler D:
i missed the chance TT

okay, im srsly bored now.
and yes, im still missing my dear badly ):

and yay, i got this shirt,
and a new hairstyle ;D
im soo happy.
well, it's stupid to spend money on a game,
but as long as it makes u happy,
i find it okay to spend on game you know (:

2008-12-20T18:57:00.003+08:00

(:

went to band in the morning. heh, woke up late ._.
and surprisingly, dear woke up earlier than me :O

anw, in the bus i took to go to school, i sat bside a girl,
whose bag has many ants on it.
i was .... nvermind.
i quickly alighted the bus though.

watched them march, and hahaa, dear was part of the marching too.
yea i brought my uniform and stuff, but no shoe ._.

went to posb bank at ard 1030am,
the queue was fucking long uhs.
then in one hour plus time, i finished making my account.
and although it was so ytd thing,
i got my atm card !! ;D
im soooo happy uhs ;D
somemore i got $100 frm my mummy, coz i got the edusave award.
i only get 20% of the total D:

okay, went back to band.
waited for band to finish, then went to tamp to eat ;D
we ate longjohn.
saw mrs chua and her daughters and niece.
and LOL, she gave me that "oooo i know what you are thinking" grin.

finished, tthen dear fetch me home.
i slacked at home, then went to my cousin hse at cck
the trip was boring.

anw, shop at lot 1
then make my way to my cousin hse.
surprisingly, i found my way thr ! ;D
elaine has good sense of direction. heh ;D

2008-12-19T12:31:00.003+08:00

currently im rotting at home ..
nthin to do.
haas.

dear quitted his job and planned to stay at home everyday.
so i guess i will even be bored-er these few days till my work start.

im really confuse.
crying everyday is not my thing.
i just wish everything that is bad to our r/s will end now.
i don wna see you like this,
neither do i wan to see our 7thmth r/s end..
haas, maybe im just the one causing everything .
no matter how hard i try to save the relationship,
im still the villian

2008-12-18T18:46:00.005+08:00

moneh moneh monehhh $.$

tday woke up uber early. i slept uber late too !
slept at 330am like that.
watch movie with my brother lor ;D
we watched over the hedge !
so cute. then wna watch sinbad, but
watch halfway, ivan tired alrdy.

got scared halfway then called dear up :x
haa, he was like halfdead.

nvermind.
i met dear at his house busstop at 730am,
then we went to mrt. met huixian, then
went to tanjongpagar to the training thingy ;D
dear then left for work ):

played psp, then reached thr late.
haa, overall was okay laa ;D
heng nver fall asleep thr.
met new friends too !
huixian cant help suaning that girl
(:

okay, went band aftrthat with huixian
then play psp thr ._.
addicted luhs.

go take bus3 at 5pm,
then go loyangpoint cut hair.
ohhhh, so little hair left ):
but i like it ;D

ohh yea ! been playing WORMWAR ever since ytd :x
i created a team of ppl i hate, or rather, offended me,
and i create my own team and fight against them !
it's fun coz at the ending thr are comments on the worms.
and it goes like this :
nameofpersonidontlike is a coward
nameofpersonidontlike is the worm of the round
and blabla, and DUH, i was looking and laughing at the negative comments ;D
it is really fun.
btw, i love my team
it is called theIdiots,
have worms called stupid, moron, dumb, retard xD
okay ._. im lame.
but, LOL, im really excited abt it.
too bad dear not vry excited when i told him abt it tday ):

kay laa, simple post for tday.
bye ;D

Olvl results are coming to town D:

2008-12-17T21:02:00.002+08:00

heh, fourth post of the day !

okay , i finished sewing the shirt i didnt wear at all ever since i bought it last year ._.
it's the first, shirt i bought online. LOL
finally, i can wear it ! ;D

mummy buying burgerking. ^^
it's like, yay ! coz i nver eat anything, except the bread dear made for me this morning (:
the sandwich very nice laa dear (:
don wry. i was just having stomach-ache before i eat it thats why my face so cramp.
it was nice, (:
anw, it's been 65464651246764324546 days since u last made breakfast for me ;D
thank you dear, i love you dear,
and i miss you dear (:
don bekchek with ur work laa.
i got pray for u leh
i also support you so you cannotcannotcanoot
nvernverevernverevernverever give up ! (:
jiayou. a few more days laaaaaaaaaaaaa.

*i hope u tmr got energy pei me go training .. (:

2008-12-17T17:58:00.003+08:00

went to play audition awhile and ergh, my stupid hand cant play audi anymore ..
i cant do simple things, and my hand keep sliding away D:

but lol, i love this outfit.
i need to spend $20 for that D:
aww, im so sad coz $20 can buy the top i wanted ALOT D:
tsktsk, savesavesave baa (:

kay im bored.
three post a day alrdy .____.

i find myself like an idiot when no one actually reads the blog yet im spending time talking stupid stuff here on my blog and posting so many post a day on my blog due to boreness caused by the boring holidays. *breathe breathe*

2008-12-17T16:00:00.002+08:00

WA ._.

okay , im superduperuber happy now ;D

1st, i finally meet my dear boy ! ♥

2nd, i got a job ! (: and tmr thr is a training session which i will be paid too !

3rd, i transferred all the games to the psp frm the thumbdrive given by xuan's brother !

YAY ;D

okay ,

i changed my blogskin back to this coz dear preferred this one ;D

but still, im going to change my blogskin soon, COZ im uber bored of this one ! D:

2008-12-17T10:49:00.002+08:00

HAHA, i changed my blogskin.
nothing to do okay.
im bored at home.

holidays are wanted by me during the Olvls.
but now, ergh, i want it to go.
coz it is so boring !
nothing to do lehs.
D:

CHRISTMAS IS COMING !
hms, i wna go Cityharvest for christmas,
but i wonder when im free.
haha.
i need $$, so these few days im saving up badly.
and boy, my stomach is really shrinking ;D
ate yongtaofu and oyster omelete (whatever it is), shared with xuan
and so fast full liao, though im complaining that im uber hungry just minutes ago.
LOL.
but this is good sign eh ?
i dont have to eat so much coz im "growing"

lols, currently it is 1054am.
woke up uber early these few days.
and my alarm is woking alrdy.
normally it cant wake me up though ._.
sleep late, wake up early.
EYEBAGS ! TT

okay im bored.

entertain me will you ? (:

2008-12-16T22:46:00.001+08:00

i waited and waited ..
but what do i get in the end ..?

n o t h i n g .

2008-12-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

went out with zahr & xiaoxuan tday ! ;D
met at 12pm, then went to raffles.
we walked to lau pa sat ;D
then took veryvery long to find food .__. lols.
ate one oyster, and yuck !

drank lots of water,
and then cross many roads,
end up in the same place.
._.
then guess what ?
we saw mdm lim ! xD
LOLs.
so random.

so we walked to esplanade frm thr, then we saw many balls in the water.
when walking the bridge,
we saw two celebrities ! ;D
xuan said they are called michelle. yea both of them :O

waited for nad and jiahao, then went to esplanade.
decided, then decided to go novena ;D
met corrina at cityhall ,
then yea, xuan spoke to one angmor.
LOLs, they speak chinese to xuan leh !
hahahhahahas

anw, went to look for the store,
then apply for the job ;D
$5 per hour.
pack sweets.

went to look for the rest, then go home ..
but on the way, the person frm manpower called
and offered me another job.
i accepted. so i cancelled the previous one ._.
lols, i waited for the manpower agency to call for a long time,
and LOL, they have to choose tday D:
sry corrina, for cancelling the application..
but yea,i got a job for the whole of january ;D
$6-7 per hour depending on the location,
and HAHA promote toothpaste .____.
heh, so random.
but yea, $$$$$ ((((:
MONEHHHHHH ;D

im so happy, i got a job alrdy ! ;D

2008-12-15T16:44:00.005+08:00

70% ROTTED

okay, im really really really really rotting at home. D:
dear say wna meet me tday, in the end he didnt due to the following :
1) woke up late
2) jeans did not dry
so dear couldnt meet me tday.
another day of sian-ness, another say of missing-my-dear-boy again D:

anw, tmr wouldnt be that bored alrdy ehh (:
meeting xiaoxuan & zahr to lao pa sat .____.
lols, i dno whr that is, i only know i heard that place bfore.
maybe if i go thr, it will ring a bell or something.
another thing, how we get thr ? :O

okayokay, i log onto the computer 3 times so far. LOLs
was bored, or rather is bored okays.
no one entertained me D:
audition so sian, im still like noob uhs.
shaunn working D:
& lols, im alone at home.

watched Lady and the Tramp just now,
just to pass time.
nice movie, but vry old alrdy.
hahs.

downloaded limewire .__.
then download songs.
;D
but so bloody long laaa
ERGH !

then i edited pictures.

so far, downloaded 2 songs .______.

okays, seems like i've done alotalot of things but the time is still passing as slow as... a snail.

oh yea, Olvl results are coming out in less than a mth time ! D:
OH NO !
i'ver been dreaming abt the results lately :x
i got 12, and 10 in both dreams.
good dream, but ...
dreams are the opposite of reality right ?
T.T

okays,
i found out many fakers.
dear told me something abt _____
and lols, she did the exact opposite to me ! (:
act good infrnt of me laa .
then bhind my back do other things.
dear told me.
it's okay, you faker.

another.
lols, how i wish u ppl didnt jump into conclusions bfore finding out the real truth.
spreading rumours that AINT true. lols
but it's okay.
im out of this corrupted school.
(: i shouldnt be worried anymore ehs
i just wished, one day, you ppl will get a taste of your own medicine.

hms im bored that;s why.
okay a real long post.
still, my blog is dead so yea,
entertainment to myself.

okay im very hungry now.
not been eating properly these few days ..
need to save money !
need to makeup for the loss of my $100 ):
i wna eat, my stomach is growling DD':

bye people, bye viewers.
LOLs, im off to .. think of things to blog abt.

2008-12-15T11:51:00.001+08:00

hahahhahahs
SEEE !
i did the FM for 168bpm.
OOOOOhhhh, im soo proud of myself :D

my hands are pretty stiff , cant play very well these few days D:
hope i can play well again soon ;D

kay, bye ;D that's all ;D

2008-12-15T09:50:00.008+08:00

13/12

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! (:

went to celebrate dear birthday (:

bfore that went to watch him play match. hahas,

then eat kfc, jiu go change and stuff, then go downtown east ^^

wanted to watch movie, but no nice movie to watch,

so ended up in pastamania ;D

eat ler jiu go tamp slack.

no movie thr also, so end up walking ard, then eat again :x

lols, had a great time tday with dear.

haas, finally 16 ehhhs ;D

aftr that went to my cousin hse at cck.

lols, played audi thr till 1am, then go home.

long day for me. but nthin to write.

so i shall end here.

btw, this is my new 2GB thumbdrive ;D

2008-12-12T18:45:00.006+08:00

hey, am i your first ?

went to bugis tday ! (again)
with baoshan, weiqian, jueying & cassandra ^^

anw, jueying was late, so end up me & weiqian have to wait for the "tampines" ppl to arrive. :x

went to look for food, then settle down at yoshinoya ;D
me&jueying watched them eat.

went ard bugis street, then junction.
took neoprints ! :x
lols, we kept laughing coz we anyhow pose & decorate.

went to foodcourt to eat, then we go achade to play ! ((:
lols, we keep playing the touch screen games,
one have to throw balls on the screen to kill lets say.. mosquitoes :x
then we play the other one is ghost one (:
lols, we had a great time !

went home aftr that,
gossip in the train :x

then i was the last to leave the train.
bought dinner for brother,
then headed home..

2days nver meet my dear boy alrdy ):
i sooo miss him uhs D:

anw, my dear 15 year old boy is finally going to turn 16 tmr ! (:
awwwww, my little boy has grown up ;x

deep down, i feel something weird,
something which i will nver tell you.

2008-12-11T19:44:00.001+08:00

went to bugis tday ;D
with baoshan ! ((:
bought clothes & bag,
& lols, my $100, gone ! ):

its okay.

anw, create a blogshop to clear my closet.
not alot currently,
but at least got some clothes.
PLEASE help me clear them !
they are new & cheap too !
it's at
http://shop-nxtdoor.blogspot.com !

2008-12-10T15:55:00.003+08:00

went to band tday (:
was kinda late, coz i couldnt wake up.
in the end, shaun waited for me for like more than an hour,
sry dear ):

anw, went to band,
then hear them sectional.
help them out alittle,
then thr was drill.
i rmb how i suffered last time,
now my turn to watch them (:
heehee.

okay, went to lunch aftr that,
then yea, send shaun to tmart (:
not send, but pei laa.
then jiu chge bus go home lerh.

& if you are my friend,
you will respect me having a boyfriend
& shut your mouth and stop spitting vinegar.
you will not insult him infrnt of me,
or rather, insult him when talking to me.
he is not a caoahbeng like you,
& he isnt a gigolo, like what u suggest u wna be.
i dont understand what the fuck you are doing,
but i simple hate what you are doing right now.
stop it, & if you hate my boyfriend,
you are like hating me.
_l_

2008-12-09T19:57:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
to me ;D

okay, let's start with 8th dec.
went to meet corrina & others, at 230pm at her hse.
lols. watched tv,
then they suddenly sing bday song for me
(:
ate the cake & lols, mel &corrina start camwhoring
with my phone ._.

had alot of fun tday ;D
hees.
thanks xuan & jiahao for waiting with me (:
& thanks jason mel corrina too ! ;D

9th dec ;D

stayed up on 8th dec till 12 am with dear.
he was with me on the phone, then
he started to fell alseep bfore 12am ._.
i woke him up then,
then he sang me happybirthday song ;D
(then went back to sleep ._.)
lols, msges came in till 7plus in the night tday ;D
thanks to those who msged me ;D
im happy to receive the messages ! ;D
xiaoxuan is the first ;D
my 4years good friend !

btw, dear came knocking on my door at 11plus.
then we find lighter, he prepare the candles,
& i have my second birthday song !

it's a pizza, made my chef kwan ^^ (:
loveeee you dear ;D

i bathed, then went to ehub to watch
BOLT !
wahahhaahas,
2movies in a wk ?
sweet ! ;D
kept laughing coz of the hamster & the pigeons
then we go whitesands,
buy glue, & eat food ler jiu go home :D

thanks dear for tday, vry much,
i enjoyed my day tday,
& the gift is very nice ;D
i will wear it someday !

& thanks carol,
for being the only one to call me to wish my happybirthday (:

2008-12-07T18:22:00.004+08:00

went to eat dinner ytd to celebrate my birthday ;D

some only, coz the rest i just eat liao :x

anw, tday went out to meet dear to go eastcoast.

waited for him for like one hour, then we zai go.

dear at first no voice :x

then aftr that we went to uy mineral water which eventually cure his throat.

anw, took 15, then go parkway.

walked to eastcoast,

& here is the real story :

i told him that i think is left,

but he confirmed that it's the right.

so we walk, & walk & walk & walk & walk & walk & walk & walk& walk

& walk ....

till we reached a deadend, aftr 45mins-50mins of walking frm whr we started !

then we took cab to the other side ._.

see laaaa, don wanna listen to me >:(

anw, ate then cycled.

had a great day with dear ;D

i loveeee you laa ;D

2008-12-06T10:26:00.007+08:00

heyyyyohhhh (:

ytd night, had a veryvery late dinner D:
me & mummy left home at 1030pm, then search hi & low for foodcourts ._.
lols, we went wrong place maas.

anw, many inconsiderate ppl thr uhs. ppl no space to eat,
yet that group of aunties & uncles & kids just sit thr, talking
NOT eating D:
im angry okay .
my mummy also.

anw, go wait for my brother aftr that.
at 1 plus, then come out. lols.
im just glad my brother is home ;D
i so miss his irritating voice la (:

look, he look like a shrunken sec 4 ;D

& he bought me these ! ;D

i love this one !

thanks brother !

kay, we slack till 3am , then sleep. lols.

woke up at 9plus.
yah.. waiting to go out. back with pictures, hopefully ;D

i'll stay silent,

& see what's in for me ..

2008-12-05T18:28:00.004+08:00

okay im pissed.
got this girl, she took my pictures, & upload them in her friendster,
without my permission
without crediting or anything.
i ren her very long liao laa.
only nver say her till now.
if matters gets worse,
i shall post her pictures & everything yea.
also, i soooo don look like her ! D:

btw, look ! i edit my pictures,
& made my desktop picture ;D
LOLs. i nthin to do laa ._.

kay bye !

2008-12-05T16:07:00.009+08:00

INTERVIEW ME ;D

went to meet shaunnnnnn at his house downstairs at 930 am (:
then we take bus go changiairport.
waited for corrina & tiff, then headed to starbucks ;D

waited for her turn , then soon mine.
lols, mine is 1130am ._.

while waiting, (as usual), i took some unglam of shaunnn again :x
best timing ? lols, when he is talking !

* some superduper unglam photos are not included .

went to eat , then sit infrnt of the old departure "tv" to see the panels chge.

shaun find it amazing though, (me ah, alittle but bored.) ._.

went to pasir ris, then go whitesands play achade basketball :DDD

lols, then play other games, then jiu go home lerh.

shaunnnn go work thou (:

i dint really go home, i went to see the doctor for my ear.

lols, the infected-for-one-year ear.

he poke small holes for the blood & white thing to come out.

then he press press press.

i let you see the cotton ..

aftr that still got. lols. but lazy take lerh

siannnnn, i wan a job badly !

PLEASSEEEEE select me D:

& lols ! my birthday is coming !!!! ;D

2008-12-04T19:57:00.003+08:00

went to look for job with corrina tday (:
was early, AGAIN D:
& have to wait for her.
(:

then we went ard looking.
in the end we end up at starbucks (:
hey, we went to all 3 terminals okay ._.
apply the form, then now im waiting for the manager to call. ):
he said he will call to arrange a walkin interview for us ):
he said he will .. D:

anw, dint go the bbq coz something cropped up at home.
sry ):

dear worked tday (:
aww, i miss him laaaa D':
nxt time only can go out with him till 3pm D:
then he work till 9pm.
dear i missing you like * laaaa ):
faster finish work call me ! (:

aww, i need money D: maybe i shall create one blogshop to sell my clothes ._.
many of them i dint wear laaa D:
so maybe. see how ._. lols.

& pssst, my birthday coming wor ;D

bye ;D

2008-12-03T19:23:00.022+08:00

happy 7th monthsary ♥ !

okay, i'll begin here.
met dear 11plus at mrt platform. why plus? coz he late ._.
i was uber early, & even saw some girls, rather, one girl tio caught drinking bubbletea at the platform :/

anw, headed to VIVO ! :D
hees. went to GV straight,
then thr is no BOLT ):
so we watched HighSchoolMusical3 !
YAY ! after complaining for weeks, i finally get to watch it !

headed to subway to eat ;D

see, it's greedy shaun :D

anw, after that, we headed to the achade to play..
basketball ! lols.
then we play the.... hockey thing lah, then draw ! lols.
6-6 haa ! boys cant beat girls ! ;D

then headed to the openarea, & dip into the pool.
so disgusting luhs. D:
so dirty. i regretted it. furthermore, we aint noti-fied abt the pool closed.
we even look at the man pouring something inside the pool nxt to us
then aftr long time, the "manager" came & said thr is chlorine added.
then we were like "wth.. ): "
coz shaun took a long time to take out his shoes & pull up his jeans.
LOLS . toooo bad ;D

went to the toilet to wash my leg. hahas, i made a puddle in the dry toliet.
faster walk out coz the cleaner is coming in :x
went to look for dear, & he is wearing shoe !

went to watch movie,
IT WAS OHHHH-SO NICE ! : D
dno why ppl say not nice luh D:

aftr that, headed to toliet
coz shaun was clumsy enough to have cheese stained on his white shirt.
tsk. as i said, he was clumsy tday.(which i told him in subway)

went to toysrus ;D

play one round, then go openspace again !

we then went to walkwalk, then
go home lerh coz too tired.

i love you dear !

happy 7th monthsary ! :D

2008-12-02T18:42:00.006+08:00

i love you, more than ever dear ♥

went out with dear to collect my cardi & tanktop from the blogshop owner.
almost late coz we last minute went to eat ._.
this time, she is punctual ;D in fact, 3-5 minutes early ! woahs.
that time she was like.. 1hour &half late, so called.
._.

these are some of the stupid pictures taken in the bus due to boredom

dear was msging when i disturb him, cool hur. (:

anw, someone frm miss emily msged me, hope i can start job or something..
dont leave me in suspense lehhhh ):
i need $$ !

& i ♥ you dear,
just need your time..
your love,
that's all to make me happy..

tmr is our 7th mth (:
hope we can last laa ! <3